Bonoa
Refugee
i had to get my 2 oldest children and 2 neighbours to assist with a spider problem this morning. i really, really, really don't want this arachnophobia anymore. i'm too tired. i also have a problem with food. it's not anorexia or anything. i just have massive issues with food. i'm also really tired and just want some uninterrupted time to myself. i just don't give a fuck sometimes about someone wanting a sandwich, or whether the tv is on, or someone hurting theselves because blah blah pinched them or pushed them over. sometimes, i just don't care. i'm tired. really tired. i rang about getting in-home child care help today. i nearly cried when leaving my details. not sure why. relief maybe? guilt maybe? i also think i will get those people in to mop my floors and scrub the bathrooms. that's all.
You need a break! Call your parents or parents in law so the children can stay there (it'll be great for them to stay with grandmum and granddad for a while). Go to a sunny place with your husband, boyfriend or with your friends and just relax and have fun!
Sometimes you need it in order to see things in perspective again.