I'm not. And if I don't get this off my chest I'm going to have a mental breakdown. I'm sorry, but I don't know who else to turn to.
He came over to pick me up since I was running late and couldn't pick him up. I invited him in the house. We were supposed to leave, but one thing led to another and we wound up on the couch kissing. He was being alot more forward than I was comfortable with, so I pushed him away. He persisted. I said no, but he kept doing it. I tried to get up and he pushed me down and hit me. If I hadn't elbowed him in the stomach I don't know what would have happened. He started to come at me again, but I picked up a vase on the coffee table and threatened to break it over his head if he touched me if he came at me and told him to leave. And, thank God, he did. But I've been scared senseless all day that he's going to come back and try to do it again or something. And I feel that it's somehow my fault that he tried to do that...if I hadn't been too forward he would have backed off. I know it's not my fault, but I feel that I had something to do with his behavior. I can't tell my family, because my mother will side with me, but tell me I shouldn't have put myself in that position. Also, my brother/and or father will be put in jail for murder. I'm dead serious about that. And the scumbag isn't worth my family going to jail for. I could go to the cops, but rape is already hard to get someone for, so nothing would happen to him for attempting it. He'd get a fine or something. Plus his father is a cop in my town. I'm so sorry I had to burden you all with this, but I couldn't keep it in any longer after the panic attack.