steelers!!!!
meanwhile, i'm going to an nfl game this weekend
i keep forgetting the game is this weekend. i guess it's because i don't like either team. 
steelers!!!!
come on. they're awesome. okay this year they suck.
I've considered them more seriously than the other sides. I also thought of Detroit, because of my own Michigan connections, but I know that would only bring constant, constant pain. I liked Miami when I was younger. The Bengals have cool uniforms. The Seahawks logo is cool. The other two I've considered are Philly and the Giants. Really, I just need to watch more matches.
ooh yes, you should. if this sunday's titans/dolphins game is televised for you, look for us in the crowd shots!
why do you get a point for missing the goal?
I confess due to things not going well this year Ive been constantly negative about things and myself because it takes it to be getting better before I can switch to a happy positive. Im an idiot.........but then have to realise its human nature.
Random confession:
I'm a deeply sensitive person. I worry about things which other people don't even notice. I get hurt easily and I analyze everything and everyone around me every moment, desperately seeking reasons not to trust people. Down inside I'm deeply insecure, but I've managed to overcome my fears over the years and I'm quite surprised with what I had become. Other people usually see me as an arrogant smartass. I'd been told lots of times that I scare people away with my behaviour and I'm aware of that. After all, my aim has been achieved: if I don't let anybody inside my shell, I won't get hurt. I present myself as a snide egoistic girl chasing her Ph.D. That being said, I recently realized that in fact I wasn't acting anymore. Over the last few months I tried to fix things and open myself to the possibility of being completely honest with people I love. Breaking up a long-term relationship was one of those things - I still care about him a lot, but I see him as any other family member. I've lost my passion over the years and 'love' was just another chore I had to do every day. I love making people happy, I enjoy making them feel good about themselves - it makes me happy as well. That's the reason why I was afraid to end it - I don't want to hurt anyone.
Over the past couple of months I've managed to overcome my fears and present my true self to a certain friend. There was I - insecure, hypersensitive, devoted, fragile, moody, easily hurt and full of issues. It felt good having someone to love me for who I am and I was free without my invincibility cloak. Long story short - I discovered I was just a toy and my sincerest emotions were somebody else's home amusement. Now is the time to retreat to my shell and build an additional fortress of defence mechanisms.
I have to work on my thesis and some papers and I can't concentrate at all. I just wander around in my mind thinking about my sinusoidal pattern of life - I was the happiest person every two days ago and I'm the exact opposite today.
I just need a hug.
You have actually no clue how much I recognise myself in that, it's actually 100% scarily accurate. That said, I know how damn hard it can be sometimes being so sensitive to all kinds of things, making life very hard at times to say the least. Just stay strong and remember there's others out there who feel the same. Don't forget to let your guards down at times though and I hope you can regain your balance again soon Good luck with everything and concentrating, that is really the hardest parts at those moments 
for trinx & MJ!
mad1
Silvia
My confession for the day: I'm so tired of fighting all the time. Sometimes I really don't want to anymore...
going to see macca tonite...
Thank you
And have fun at the show!
Depeche Mode tonight
for trinx, JS, LU. Oh, what the heck, for everyone
all the best
Random confession:
I'm a deeply sensitive person. I worry about things which other people don't even notice. I get hurt easily and I analyze everything and everyone around me every moment, desperately seeking reasons not to trust people. Down inside I'm deeply insecure, but I've managed to overcome my fears over the years and I'm quite surprised with what I had become. Other people usually see me as an arrogant smartass. I'd been told lots of times that I scare people away with my behaviour and I'm aware of that. After all, my aim has been achieved: if I don't let anybody inside my shell, I won't get hurt. I present myself as a snide egoistic girl chasing her Ph.D. That being said, I recently realized that in fact I wasn't acting anymore. Over the last few months I tried to fix things and open myself to the possibility of being completely honest with people I love. Breaking up a long-term relationship was one of those things - I still care about him a lot, but I see him as any other family member. I've lost my passion over the years and 'love' was just another chore I had to do every day. I love making people happy, I enjoy making them feel good about themselves - it makes me happy as well. That's the reason why I was afraid to end it - I don't want to hurt anyone.
Over the past couple of months I've managed to overcome my fears and present my true self to a certain friend. There was I - insecure, hypersensitive, devoted, fragile, moody, easily hurt and full of issues. It felt good having someone to love me for who I am and I was free without my invincibility cloak. Long story short - I discovered I was just a toy and my sincerest emotions were somebody else's home amusement. Now is the time to retreat to my shell and build an additional fortress of defence mechanisms.
I have to work on my thesis and some papers and I can't concentrate at all. I just wander around in my mind thinking about my sinusoidal pattern of life - I was the happiest person every two days ago and I'm the exact opposite today.
I just need a hug.
for you
I confess due to things not going well this year Ive been constantly negative about things and myself because it takes it to be getting better before I can switch to a happy positive. Im an idiot.........but then have to realise its human nature.
