i'm putting this in a spoiler because i can't bear to re-read it. hell, i can't even look at the screen right now because i know i'll get upset. i leave to go back to nz in less than a week. and don't get me wrong, i can't wait to see ian again. but i am not looking forward to all the bullshit drama there and i'm really going to miss my parents and just america in general. i could kick myself for hating memphis for so long as i did. it's not the best city ever or anything but it's certainly not the worst. besides, it's the people that live in a city that can help make a city great, and wherever my parents are can't be totally shitty.
i just can't believe how fast this time went. it's not like i was here for ages, but i still feel like i just got here and i'm not ready to leave yet. i wish ian could move here and somehow still keep his job and work and stuff, and i could take my classes online, just basically everyone and everything could bend to accommodate me so i could stay here.