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>>>>> It's DONE !!!!! <<<<<<<<
early FEB 1988
i'm scanning The pages on the bus among the things i definately looking for/stop tO read becaUASE OF MY INTERESTS....my eyes suddenly catch this......
"...Mr. ____ _______ of Island Records died suddenly ________....."
part of me went uh?........ uh oh no. oh no.......
Later in the evening it was my sis who got me on the phone first....terrible tragedy, yeah, sis I saw it in the paper this afternoon...
HE was the husband of my sis's friend who was good friends with this man's wife......that was the end o
I shrugged, sighed oh well, to my sis....
i mentioned it one of her oldest best freinds [who became my friend over time] and we with some steradt others have been seeing R&R concerts -includiong u2- for over 25 yrs together.
and i NEVER mentioned IT to ANYONE again
I felt i had
no right to my feelings which got clamped down so FAST, because it was the adult, mature, senstive thing to do.....
but feelings I HAD to have had...otherwise
why would i have avoided - by not seeing R&H in the theater ESPafter MY SIS came HOME RAVING at how FANTASTIC it was!!!! <looks like i had 'issues'.>
but this is how I REALLY FELT
!!!!!!
I felt SOOOO FUCKING CHEATED !!!!!!!!!!!out of even having a REAL CHANCE at least to have a go at it....
I have sucha mix of "common place" & esoteric spiritual & "controversial" Theoterical Quantums Ideas I've read about- paARAELLEL EARTHS/PEOPLE/ EVENTS SIMILAR AND THAT BRACH OFF REALLY CHANGING HISTORY [ THINK OF tREK'S TIME LINE CONTINIUM POLICE
sorry pinky slip.... add ion free will & "destiny" stuff....
maye it wasn't meant to br at that time.... but it sure hurt like hell!!!
It was coming here and seeing all those R&H stills that over a coupl of months slowly brought it up again close to the surface......and i finally had to "SAY something" only I guess I was too soon when I hadn't ben around too long.... i figured if i couldn't say something to suoper fans here...where could i -since i wasn't going to bring it up to my sis.....
i felt 'safe enough' now with you all to rebridge the story....
so thaT'S IT My PPG Peeps..........
AND THANKS FOR LISTENING
S