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I'm fighting it, but I can feel myself slipping into depression. In her book Prozac Nation Elizabeth Wurtzel describes it as happening gradually and then suddenly, and that's exactly what it IS like.
I'm trying to do things I enjoy, spend time just for me, to pamper myself a little bit. I'm kind of manic right now so my house is clean, too clean really because I can't find anything else to clean. Seriously. It's funny, I have this system where the kids can earn computer time by doing chores, but lately I've had to really think hard to come up with anything for them to do, because all I do all day and night is prowl and putter around the house.
I told my husband today that I want to go stay with my best friend who lives 3 hours from here, but he didn't like that idea. A little later I told him that I am thinking of going inpatient somewhere, that maybe I should check myself in now rather than waiting until things get really, really bad.
But the closest hospital with a psych ward is 2 hours away, and they might not even have any open beds when I got there anyway, plus my dh really doesn't want me to go because he as a "really busy weekend planned at work".
I know all the right things to do: stay on your meds, get out of the house, spend time doing something you enjoy, reach out to people IRL and online, and for gods sake keep taking your meds. I just hope all those things will be enough, that this is just a little rough patch and I'll be ok in a day or 2 or 3.
I'm trying to do things I enjoy, spend time just for me, to pamper myself a little bit. I'm kind of manic right now so my house is clean, too clean really because I can't find anything else to clean. Seriously. It's funny, I have this system where the kids can earn computer time by doing chores, but lately I've had to really think hard to come up with anything for them to do, because all I do all day and night is prowl and putter around the house.
I told my husband today that I want to go stay with my best friend who lives 3 hours from here, but he didn't like that idea. A little later I told him that I am thinking of going inpatient somewhere, that maybe I should check myself in now rather than waiting until things get really, really bad.
But the closest hospital with a psych ward is 2 hours away, and they might not even have any open beds when I got there anyway, plus my dh really doesn't want me to go because he as a "really busy weekend planned at work".
I know all the right things to do: stay on your meds, get out of the house, spend time doing something you enjoy, reach out to people IRL and online, and for gods sake keep taking your meds. I just hope all those things will be enough, that this is just a little rough patch and I'll be ok in a day or 2 or 3.