mad1
ONE love, blood, life
...I never once cried over my father's death, nor even at his funeral............I must sound really abnormal saying that but its true..........
.....however it still haunts me and makes me cry ,(depending), how he ended up after mum and him got seperated, and that upsets me more.......he had a flat down in Bangor, Co Down (I tink) and it had been broken into once and his TV and some stuff stolen - that saddens me still.
He used to stay at our caravan that we all used to have fun in, and drink, drink, drink.....even with men who possibly were just 'drinking pals' and not friends........then mum visited that caravan one time before so much unpaid rent was due it ended up being burnt, and told me the state it was in, that saddens me still. I had to re-visit the caravan site last year to stop the re-occuring nightmares I was getting over it.
I would often get upset at the beginning of The Pogues 'Fairytale of New York', I dont know why but it makes me visualise my father sittin on the steps of an old broken down building, drinking and thinking of all he has lost, inc, his own family....
I have cried more over the above three, but never his death......is there somethin wrong with me?
I know, and he died in 94...........but I was never close to him........
I feel sad now........
.....however it still haunts me and makes me cry ,(depending), how he ended up after mum and him got seperated, and that upsets me more.......he had a flat down in Bangor, Co Down (I tink) and it had been broken into once and his TV and some stuff stolen - that saddens me still.
He used to stay at our caravan that we all used to have fun in, and drink, drink, drink.....even with men who possibly were just 'drinking pals' and not friends........then mum visited that caravan one time before so much unpaid rent was due it ended up being burnt, and told me the state it was in, that saddens me still. I had to re-visit the caravan site last year to stop the re-occuring nightmares I was getting over it.
I would often get upset at the beginning of The Pogues 'Fairytale of New York', I dont know why but it makes me visualise my father sittin on the steps of an old broken down building, drinking and thinking of all he has lost, inc, his own family....
I have cried more over the above three, but never his death......is there somethin wrong with me?
I know, and he died in 94...........but I was never close to him........
I feel sad now........