bunch of little ones for no reason at all.

[ghetofabu]

I love my hair. Like allot. I like it to the point of being snotty about it. I don't tell anyone this.

I like my eyes and feel special that they are different, but it makes me feel uncomfortable to be complemented about it, so I play it off and act ok with it.

I use to bit my toe nails when I was a kid because I was afraid I would miss with the clippers and cut a piece of flesh off.

It irritates me when people tell me I should quit smoking, but I don't show it.

I had cancer removed from my cervix and it has affected my ability to bear children.

I have a fear of being codependent because I don't want to feel like I need someone, so I overcompensate by being overly independent in just about everything.

I don't like asking for help.

It bothers me allot that I got kicked out of the AF for my weight. I tell just about everyone that it does not.

I am a sarcastic smart ass and it gets me in trouble allot and it makes people around me feel uncomfortable sometimes.

I am self-centered.

 

[Sicy]

I like this thread.. I dont know why but it's exciting to read

I love my hair. Like allot. I like it to the point of being snotty about it. I don't tell anyone this.

I like my hair too. But I'm usually not snotty about it.

It irritates me when people tell me I should quit smoking, but I don't show it.

Me too.

I had cancer removed from my cervix and it has affected my ability to bear children.

Wow... that's deep. Glad you're ok.

I am a sarcastic smart ass and it gets me in trouble allot and it makes people around me feel uncomfortable sometimes.

Me too.




*hugs* gheto just cuz.

 

[missmacphisto]

I love my hair. Like allot.

I like my eyes and feel special that they are different, but it makes me feel uncomfortable to be complemented about it, so I play it off and act ok with it.

I have a fear of being codependent because I don't want to feel like I need someone, so I overcompensate by being overly independent in just about everything.

I don't like asking for help.

I am a sarcastic smart ass and it gets me in trouble allot and it makes people around me feel uncomfortable sometimes.

Whoa, seems like we have a lot in common here! I also love my hair and eyes a lot. I'm not snotty though, just obsessive.
I am terrified of asking for and accepting help, cuz i got humiliated and degraded for it, and cuz i saw my mom also get treated terribly for being needy. Plus, asking for or accepting help has usually brought me more problems, made people angry at me,etc, so now I am extremely hesitant to ask for / accept help of any kind. It brings me much suffering, i really need to learn to get over this fear.
It seems like I need to be independant even if it kills me. I'm so afraid of relying on anyone. Its not that I dont want anyone to help me. I do. I just cant seem to let them.
As for being a sarcastic smart ass, well i CAN be one, it isnt my usual attitude though.

 

[Screaming Flower]

i feel a lot of what you're saying. i admire anyone who can talk about themselves in such a deep and honest way because i am simply terrible at it.

 

[LarryMullen's POPAngel]

Sometimes I wish I could feel that good about myself. Glad there are others out there who can.


Also glad you're alright gheto.
*hugs*

 

[pax]

I love my hair. Like allot. I like it to the point of being snotty about it. I don't tell anyone this.

Me too, actually. I have very long blonde hair and I'm vain about it. I brush it and play with it constantly.

I had cancer removed from my cervix and it has affected my ability to bear children.

A friend of mine had to have an emergency hysterectomy a few weeks ago. I've never had to go through anything similar, but I understand that that must have been very hard for you.

I have a fear of being codependent because I don't want to feel like I need someone, so I overcompensate by being overly independent in just about everything.

Uh huh, I know *that* feeling from personal experience.

I don't like asking for help.

And I can't admit that I want someone's company, or friendship, or love...or that I want someone, period.

I don't know if that was sympathy, exactly, but at least it was empathy.

(((((((((((((((((gheto)))))))))))))))))

 

[BabyGrace]

there's nothing wrong with liking yourself. and we're all self-centered to a point, Im sure you are not excessively so.

you don't seem like you'd be uncomfortable to be around, you seem like you'd be a lot of fun to hang out with...and I like the way everything you say is short and to the point, because that is so not me

it's really amazing that you beat cancer, that takes a strong person...

 

[Sicy]

Re: Re: bunch of little ones for no reason at all.

Me too, actually. I have very long blonde hair and I'm vain about it. I brush it and play with it constantly.

Wow for some reason I always picture you with brown hair.

 

[diamond]

Re: Re: Re: bunch of little ones for no reason at all.

Wow for some reason I always picture you with brown hair.

Pax in my view is prolly one of the most beautiful ppl on the board.
I promise

Db9

 

[ghetofabu]

In response.

*hugs* gheto just cuz. [/B]

thanks *hugs* back.

I am terrified of asking for and accepting help, cuz i got humiliated and degraded for it..... It seems like I need to be independant even if it kills me. I'm so afraid of relying on anyone. Its not that I dont want anyone to help me. I do. I just cant seem to let them.

I so know what you are saying here.

i feel a lot of what you're saying. i admire anyone who can talk about themselves in such a deep and honest way because i am simply terrible at it.

I think I lied to myself for a long time about some of these things but I just came to face them and get them out there. I think it is better to admit something and get it over with and it feels like a weight off your shoulders. You may still do the things but at least you are consciously aware and that is better than denial.

Also glad you're alright gheto.
*hugs*

Thanks *hugs*

And I can't admit that I want someone's company, or friendship, or love...or that I want someone, period.

I don't know if that was sympathy, exactly, but at least it was empathy.

(((((((((((((((((gheto)))))))))))))))))

It's all good. thanks.

there's nothing wrong with liking yourself. and we're all self-centered to a point, Im sure you are not excessively so.

you don't seem like you'd be uncomfortable to be around, you seem like you'd be a lot of fun to hang out with...and I like the way everything you say is short and to the point, because that is so not me

If I am ever in jersey I will look you up and we can hang.

 

[BabyGrace]

and why would anyone ever be in Jersey?

 

[ghetofabu]

You never know. I may have a desire to go to Coney Island. Isn't that there??