Mrs. Garrison
Rock n' Roll Doggie ALL ACCESS
Dude. Everything okay?
(eta - that was probably a really stupid way to phrase a well-intentioned question.)
In the grand scheme of things, its real. In all likelihood, i a fine. Just a bit drunk, sick, and fucking worn out.
But yeah - rage does follow grief. In a way that i would have never imagined before. You lose the one person in your life who not only played a big role in your birth, but also went to work and bragged to all who would listen how wonderful you were, and then, kept doing that shit for enough years until you were old enough to realize that despite what a fuck up you were - they didn't care - because they loved you unconditionally. That person, that special bond, just had to go.
Again. That is the rage inside of me.
The grief, for the person i lost and loved so much, doesnt hold that much anger and resentment to life. Its a thing - that we get to have two sides to grief
A year and more later i dont have a better handle on it like i thought imight. Guess it just means i m human afterall.
We all are. But its still gut - wrenching.
And thank you for asking. Im fine and will be so.