mad1
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Why? WHY? WHY FUCKING WHY WHY WHY ? do some pple in this world feel the fuking need, the big furking need to, when ur feeling great about urself over anything, ie ? new car, kittens, blah fuking blah, do they need, I mean really feel the need to critisize u if ur ?thin or fat ? skinny or gigantic?
WHY WHY WHY?
ya know, Ive said before about my natural skinniness and Ive said if u all think Im happy with it u are so fuking wrong, Id give anything to be a size 12 and those unfortunate say theyd like to be my size?..
yet I feel weight trainin will make me develop that ?Geri Halliwell? look.
but for fuk sake, if its genuingly some-fuking-thing that cannot be helped because it runs in the family, or takes a long time to develop???why do pple feel the need to comment?
Concern? Yes??
But do they give a shit about ur feelings on the matter? No
Im sorry, but these pple do bring me down, and make me feel like Im unacceptable to the world JUST because my body type isn?t right?????????.it drives me one step closer to suicide almost because?..as I said???it takes a good bit, good time before any weight comes on??and gawd bless anyone who is heavy and is critised more?.I just so wanna hug them tight??.
I think the problem is Im not critical of anyone, I don?t give a shit about someones size, therefore don?t understand why pple out there do???..in an almost ?concerned comment? but don?t understand what pain they?ve inflicted on the person mentally.
Im sorry, I desperately had to vent cause one time a Director's wife made a comment, he approached me saying she wants to know if Im ok. Yes IM OK I have im-prooooooved........it just runs on my father's SI-IIIIIDE! (always having to explain to pple)
and then a manager said today ? You know, u are really really skinny?
Which made me just there and then want to run out in front of the next oncoming car?????..
Of course I WANT to prove them wrong, its just taking a reaaaaaaaaally long time??.its not happening fast????..but Im so fed up, Im sure some of u out there are on the same track, and I don?t mean that rude??????.but I am sending a gigantic, warm cyber-hug out to u???(((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))
I am NOT looking for any 'Im sorry mads' or sympathy, Im just venting...........and Im extra sorry to anyone whose fed up with these threads - there may be a few out there.
I just wish I knew ?throw-back? lines to shut their gobs!
Let me get on with my life, please!
*edited to say sorry, realized the boob I made and hopefully BC will merge it! *
WHY WHY WHY?
ya know, Ive said before about my natural skinniness and Ive said if u all think Im happy with it u are so fuking wrong, Id give anything to be a size 12 and those unfortunate say theyd like to be my size?..
yet I feel weight trainin will make me develop that ?Geri Halliwell? look.
but for fuk sake, if its genuingly some-fuking-thing that cannot be helped because it runs in the family, or takes a long time to develop???why do pple feel the need to comment?
Concern? Yes??
But do they give a shit about ur feelings on the matter? No
Im sorry, but these pple do bring me down, and make me feel like Im unacceptable to the world JUST because my body type isn?t right?????????.it drives me one step closer to suicide almost because?..as I said???it takes a good bit, good time before any weight comes on??and gawd bless anyone who is heavy and is critised more?.I just so wanna hug them tight??.
I think the problem is Im not critical of anyone, I don?t give a shit about someones size, therefore don?t understand why pple out there do???..in an almost ?concerned comment? but don?t understand what pain they?ve inflicted on the person mentally.
Im sorry, I desperately had to vent cause one time a Director's wife made a comment, he approached me saying she wants to know if Im ok. Yes IM OK I have im-prooooooved........it just runs on my father's SI-IIIIIDE! (always having to explain to pple)
and then a manager said today ? You know, u are really really skinny?
Which made me just there and then want to run out in front of the next oncoming car?????..
Of course I WANT to prove them wrong, its just taking a reaaaaaaaaally long time??.its not happening fast????..but Im so fed up, Im sure some of u out there are on the same track, and I don?t mean that rude??????.but I am sending a gigantic, warm cyber-hug out to u???(((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))))
I am NOT looking for any 'Im sorry mads' or sympathy, Im just venting...........and Im extra sorry to anyone whose fed up with these threads - there may be a few out there.
I just wish I knew ?throw-back? lines to shut their gobs!
Let me get on with my life, please!
*edited to say sorry, realized the boob I made and hopefully BC will merge it! *
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