lady luck said:
this is quite sad...
I mean, I didn't have great holidays.. But I am a lil sad for that. I don't remember holidays celebrated in a really cheered up way and I hope that I'll have the opportunity to have them one day.
That's, of course, just my opinion.
You sound content that you were so "normal".
Perhaps some of the holiday magic was lost with me, but it was more or less a very level Chrismas and such. I don't really care, as for myself. But I'm sure for others, I might have come off a little weird.
I disdain faking emotions, though. I totally respected and was grateful for all my gifts, yes. And it wasn't a negative feeling I felt. I suppose I just enjoyed seeing the people of my family, and really didn't feel up for the holiday formalities, or whatever.
Even when picking out cards, I just picked out a more or less un-wordy card, and wrote down my own feelings, which I think is truer.
Actually, I really don't know how to describe it. I guess, mostly, it's just my first real chrismass as someone who is not really a child. I am an adult now, and a young one. So perhaps it seemed more sober than in the past, but I wasn't really upset about that.
This, too, and I don't really feel a connection to any sort of home. Everyone has moved, and there is no one location that I feel any ...... connections to.