travu2
The Fly
I know that people think I'm a bit aloof in real life and that maybe I want to be left alone (not sure how that translates on the net), but the reality is that I want to interact with people and open myself up to them. I am absolutely terrified of relationships of any kind, though, even just simple friendships. I have not had any close friends since highschool (8 years ago), but I had 2 short romantic relationships in college. I have small talk with people at work, but that's it. You people here at interference are literally my closest friends. I interact with you more than anybody else, and that's why I'm posting this here. I also find, like most people, that I am able to be much more open on the internet.
I just want to say right now that I am really paranoid about posting this because I am afraid that everyone will think I am trying to get people to feel sorry for me. That is NOT the case; when I am feeling more depressed than usual, or I have some kind of crisis, I don't have anyone I can talk to about it except all of you (I know I need to change that). The way I have expressed those feelings here in the past was mainly through poetry and sometimes in quotes or other things. I have family here in town, but there are many things that I just can't talk to them about, and they're in a constant state of dysfunction anyway.
I am the only one who can change things for myself, and I have been making an effort to reach out more and not to take myself so seriously. Eventually, I'll have to do this with actual human beings (heaven forbid).
So what is the purpose of this post? One purpose was simply to get that off my chest. I think it was also prompted by some things that have happened in my life recently, but the main purpose is this: I know there are people here who can relate to my situation, whether you suffer from depression and/or O.C.D., or are just going through really tough times right now. Maybe you're a lurker who doesn't even post? I would really like to chat with you people so that we can support each other. I know how comforting it is to be able to just open up to someone who will listen without accusing you of being selfish and wanting pity.
I am completely harmless.
I can be reached through any of the following methods, but it's probably best just to send me an email:
travu2@hotmail.com
ICQ: 26695263
AIM: gaudytorpor
I have never used AIM, but it doesn't look too difficult.
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"Be uncool.
Yes, be awkward."
I just want to say right now that I am really paranoid about posting this because I am afraid that everyone will think I am trying to get people to feel sorry for me. That is NOT the case; when I am feeling more depressed than usual, or I have some kind of crisis, I don't have anyone I can talk to about it except all of you (I know I need to change that). The way I have expressed those feelings here in the past was mainly through poetry and sometimes in quotes or other things. I have family here in town, but there are many things that I just can't talk to them about, and they're in a constant state of dysfunction anyway.
I am the only one who can change things for myself, and I have been making an effort to reach out more and not to take myself so seriously. Eventually, I'll have to do this with actual human beings (heaven forbid).
So what is the purpose of this post? One purpose was simply to get that off my chest. I think it was also prompted by some things that have happened in my life recently, but the main purpose is this: I know there are people here who can relate to my situation, whether you suffer from depression and/or O.C.D., or are just going through really tough times right now. Maybe you're a lurker who doesn't even post? I would really like to chat with you people so that we can support each other. I know how comforting it is to be able to just open up to someone who will listen without accusing you of being selfish and wanting pity.
I am completely harmless.
I can be reached through any of the following methods, but it's probably best just to send me an email:
travu2@hotmail.com
ICQ: 26695263
AIM: gaudytorpor
I have never used AIM, but it doesn't look too difficult.
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"Be uncool.
Yes, be awkward."