deathbear -
For what it's worth, whenever I have a bad day, or crap happens, I come here. This may be one of the strangest things you've heard, but the things that usually make me feel better are your incredible posts. I know this thread is a day or two old, and that I posted an equally strange/mysterious post about your humor, but my words have never been more true.
Music has always been that helping hand, the hug I need or the song to sing. Especially when it's U2. I believe there is something more unique and amazing about U2 than any other band. I feel like when I talk to a U2 fan, I seem to understand a tad-or-ton more than if they were the average stranger.
For me, there has always been one thing more magnetic and electrical than the powers of music: laughter. Or humor/comedy/gaffs/follies, even jokes. If laughter is the best medicine, than I admit I'm an addict and HAVE overdosed.
Sorry for all the different ideas I have in my head, but I wanted to share.
Here's a brief story: I don't know you. I don't know any interferencer for that matter - in person. I do know that from what I have read on this board for a loooonngg time (pre-may2001), there are some really awesome personalities, and they are some rotten eggs. I've noticed that there are some interference guys around my age or older who seem to be in an era/saga that I once attended to (and could easily return). For the last couple of months, the only phrase (besides "the answer is fries") that seems to cycle my mind is "the best is yet to come". I believe in this. My hopefully brief tale goes like this:
Around this time last year, I had just completed something amazing to myself. I had just made it an entire summer without wanting a girlfriend. I was having a blast hanging/chilling (the best combination) with my friends. The summer's in the past I felt like I needed/wanted a girlfriend. I did want one. But, I finally got so sick of girls, I fell in love with my job. That's right, I loved a fast-food job that paid low for the amount of time I had put in. That summer I made a pact to my friends that this was the new and final me, preparing for a life of permanent bacholer-hood. I was happy. I felt complete. Then...
A week or two before this time last year, I was blessed. Sometimes I wonder why I became so lucky. Around this time last year, I met the girl for me. I didn't deserve her, I felt like a wretch, or at least that was the impressed that was set in stone from past relationships (the ones where I'd be the nice guy, doing the right things, at the right times, listening, and most of all - leaving myself open; for love, or attacks). I thought it was a joke, but most of all, I was in total shock. What I never thought I would find, I eventually did. When it did, it hit me when I least expected it. I wasn't ready for a girlfriend, I was single dammit! Hehe, I felt like I had worked so hard for getting used to being alone. And now here's this chance. I remember thinking that I'd call her up and blow her off cause I was happy. Plus, I always wondered what it was like on the other receiving line of "dumped/rejected". But I remember that I couldn't help it. I felt like being nice. I felt like if I did end up getting hurt, what did I have to lose? I'd be right back at my little pad, square one.
I don't remember to much of our first conversation. All I remember is the odd sense of happy I felt. And I still feel that happy today. I was supposed to be single, I remember thinking that so vividly.....
Sorry if my story doesn't help or have any relevance at all. I thought you would like to know that the girl will come. Maybe when you least expect it, maybe when when you are expecting it. You are you now. You are cleared of any expectations, rules, or graces. Being single can be fun. There's a quote I've heard: "When you're single you want a relationship, and when you're in a relationship you want to be single." This can be true. Video games were my once pronounced "true love". It's sad I don't play them as often now, but they're not my love : ) I hope luck/fate/good stuff flows your way. And, thank you again for making me giggle intensely. - wannabe