Zoomerang96
ONE love, blood, life
oh dear... there two parts here. i think spring fever might have caught up to me, or is it just heat? whatever it is, its wrong. ....
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PART 1
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what can i say? im happy shes far away, usually. however my ex is in town this week and well lets just say making even eye contact isnt a good idea. we shouldnt even be on the same continant.
this lovely girl made me like her for oh, 3 full years after she dumped me. i finally got over her, sometime in summer last year (yes i remember exactly when) and today its like "umm, ok now i remember why i liked her so much."
however, i wont see her again, nor will i talk to her again, so its all good.
this coming from a person who said he had no use for sexuality just a week or two ago must seem strange. what can i say? so much is happening out here in the frozen winter-burned barren land of tundra that i might lose my grip on my few shreds of undieing sanity.
why i really wrote this thread is what makes us attracted to people we shouldnt be, knowingly even? aaargh. shes not stuck in my mind, but i needed to post this thread to get your attention. what.
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PART 2
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alright. theres this other wonderful girl whom ive known for id say about a year now, who i get along with great. i see her with her friends when we get together whenever, usually on weekends and we always have a great time.
well, this past weekend ive been driven to the ground by her friends and mine also, to ask her out. i tell them flat out "no." "im not boyfriend material, and i dont want to ruin whatever friendship we/i enjoy."
this however hasnt changed their stance.
so naturally i scream at them, jump up throw my bewildered hands in the air and tell them to screw off.
well, whatever. all of this happens to take place RIGHT in front of her. they pretended to be quiet, but i know she heard all of this.
this next friday i imagine ill see her again. it was all weired at the end of our "time" last time, now what. her friends have since, so ive heard, told her about this plan of theirs, so i can only imagine how awkward this will all be.
this is a beautiful reminder of why relationships never work.
how do i present myself now? naturally i dont ever want to see her again now, but i want to remain friends, and who knows maybe maybe maybe well no, it will never happen, consider dating her, if she would too. wait. doesnt it always take two anyway?
yet another rambling piece of blind dijointed poetry on my behalf.
i like being alone. but i think i might not like to be alone too.
thoughts?
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-deathbear
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PART 1
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what can i say? im happy shes far away, usually. however my ex is in town this week and well lets just say making even eye contact isnt a good idea. we shouldnt even be on the same continant.
this lovely girl made me like her for oh, 3 full years after she dumped me. i finally got over her, sometime in summer last year (yes i remember exactly when) and today its like "umm, ok now i remember why i liked her so much."
however, i wont see her again, nor will i talk to her again, so its all good.
this coming from a person who said he had no use for sexuality just a week or two ago must seem strange. what can i say? so much is happening out here in the frozen winter-burned barren land of tundra that i might lose my grip on my few shreds of undieing sanity.
why i really wrote this thread is what makes us attracted to people we shouldnt be, knowingly even? aaargh. shes not stuck in my mind, but i needed to post this thread to get your attention. what.
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PART 2
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alright. theres this other wonderful girl whom ive known for id say about a year now, who i get along with great. i see her with her friends when we get together whenever, usually on weekends and we always have a great time.
well, this past weekend ive been driven to the ground by her friends and mine also, to ask her out. i tell them flat out "no." "im not boyfriend material, and i dont want to ruin whatever friendship we/i enjoy."
this however hasnt changed their stance.
so naturally i scream at them, jump up throw my bewildered hands in the air and tell them to screw off.
well, whatever. all of this happens to take place RIGHT in front of her. they pretended to be quiet, but i know she heard all of this.
this next friday i imagine ill see her again. it was all weired at the end of our "time" last time, now what. her friends have since, so ive heard, told her about this plan of theirs, so i can only imagine how awkward this will all be.
this is a beautiful reminder of why relationships never work.
how do i present myself now? naturally i dont ever want to see her again now, but i want to remain friends, and who knows maybe maybe maybe well no, it will never happen, consider dating her, if she would too. wait. doesnt it always take two anyway?
yet another rambling piece of blind dijointed poetry on my behalf.
i like being alone. but i think i might not like to be alone too.
thoughts?
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-deathbear