U2fan6313
War Child
This is sort of embarassing, but I feel close to my U2 family and I feel sort of lost so I could use some help...
As of three weeks ago, I officially have depression-anxiety. It started last school year. And now that I'm back at school, it's just gotten worse. I just started medication but I've had to drop two classes because I can't handle all the work. I'm in my fourth year at university going for a Bachelor of Arts in Honours History. I have no idea what I want to do with my life after that in terms of occupations. And I don't think I enjoy school anymore. It's such a burden now... I have several options. I could stop now, graduate with a three year degree, work, and travel. I would be closing some doors, as an Honours degree qualifies me for more than a three-year degree. Or, I could continue to struggle and suffer through my fourth year and come back next year to pick up the dropped credits.
My godmother said I light up when I talk about traveling to Ireland. It's the only thing I know I want. So basically...I'm torn between what I should do, and what I want to do.
And I don't even know if this is the depression/anxiety speaking or it's me. I KNOW the Ireland part is me. I've been dreaming about it for years. I can't focus on school work, but I can spend hours and hours looking up places to visit in Ireland. I have a list. And it's not just about U2. It's so much more than that. I feel drawn to it for some reason. I want to see the Cliffs of Moher, Skilleg Michael, Dublin Castle, the library in Trinity College Dublin...I love Irish history. So I know I love history and I love some of the things I learn in school.
And I always have the option to graduate now with a three year degree and then come back after traveling once I figure out what to do with my life.
But......I just don't even know. I have this and so many other things racing through my mind all the time and I can't even begin to sort through it all. Anyway, any advice or anything would be really appreciated...
As of three weeks ago, I officially have depression-anxiety. It started last school year. And now that I'm back at school, it's just gotten worse. I just started medication but I've had to drop two classes because I can't handle all the work. I'm in my fourth year at university going for a Bachelor of Arts in Honours History. I have no idea what I want to do with my life after that in terms of occupations. And I don't think I enjoy school anymore. It's such a burden now... I have several options. I could stop now, graduate with a three year degree, work, and travel. I would be closing some doors, as an Honours degree qualifies me for more than a three-year degree. Or, I could continue to struggle and suffer through my fourth year and come back next year to pick up the dropped credits.
My godmother said I light up when I talk about traveling to Ireland. It's the only thing I know I want. So basically...I'm torn between what I should do, and what I want to do.
And I don't even know if this is the depression/anxiety speaking or it's me. I KNOW the Ireland part is me. I've been dreaming about it for years. I can't focus on school work, but I can spend hours and hours looking up places to visit in Ireland. I have a list. And it's not just about U2. It's so much more than that. I feel drawn to it for some reason. I want to see the Cliffs of Moher, Skilleg Michael, Dublin Castle, the library in Trinity College Dublin...I love Irish history. So I know I love history and I love some of the things I learn in school.
And I always have the option to graduate now with a three year degree and then come back after traveling once I figure out what to do with my life.
But......I just don't even know. I have this and so many other things racing through my mind all the time and I can't even begin to sort through it all. Anyway, any advice or anything would be really appreciated...