gareth brown
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This may seem quite childish because of my age [16] but it doesn't to me!
Where the hell do I start? It would appear that I, around 10-12 years after swearing to my uncle one evening over dinner that I would never get a girlfriend, and desperate to approach a certain young lady...!
It's just embarassing! I'm using this account as a disguise, as my mates have a habit of searching each other's names on Google during lessons in computer rooms at school and the first results that spring up when my name is searched for are Interference pages! If I were to type this under my proper name sod's law says THIS mini-rant would be the first result to pop up and ALL WOULD BE LOST...so I can't take any chances!
Anyway, to the point...! I've always noticed this girl when I've been walking about in school, and until recently have never said a word to her...but recently I was lucky enough to be working on the technical balcony (lighting and sound crap) for our school's annual production, in which she had a leading part.
In short, all of a sudden it just sprang on me...she is fucking gorgeous! Whenever I see her it's fantastic even if I don't say anything, and I spent far too long just looking at her from a distance as she got on with her acting in rehearsals and on the night, etc...it just feels great! You know how teenagers are, just thinking beauty is only skin-deep etc. I've always tried to never think that way about anyone EVER, and after spending a few minutes talking to this girl when working on the school production every now and again, I've realised she is one of the sweetest, most charming people I've ever met...plus she's extremely pretty as well!
This problem was going to get a completely different topic as it's proving impossible NOT to think about her, and the new U2 album's gone and made it worse! Why did that cd have to come out at this time?! Now when I listen to it while going to sleep, tracks like 'city of blinding lights' and 'original of the species' remind me of no-one but her! And she would appear to be permanently fixed on my mind at the moment!
The problem is, she's in the year below, I have around six months left in my school before I take my final exams and leave! On top of that, I've never asked anybody out before, as (despite always trying to hide anything that bothers me and appear to be as calm and collected as i can be) I always find it extremely difficult to talk about ANYTHING to do with women, relationships etc. and have always kept my opinions to myself on things such as that...!
Ideally, I would love to say "Hi, would you like to go out some time yadda yadda yadda..." and kind of keep it to myself where my family are concerned in case it doesn't work out, and if it's a stomping success just bring it up over dinner with the family, casual as possible...! But then if I were lucky enough to go out with her and didn't mention it to my family, she'd think I was ashamed of her!!
I know my family would never judge me if I went out with anyone, I've been extremely lucky to be brought up the way I have been and know there wouldn't be any problem telling them I was going out with someone! I don't have a controlling family, but I think at the end of the day, there's going to be a time where the mask is just going to slip and I'll just have to admit that I am an extremely shy individual...!!
I really am stuck here!
What do I do?! Just sod all others and tell her "Look, I am infatuated with you and would really like to spend some more time with you!" before I leave the school, blowing any chances of seeing her again since she lives MILES away in another town and I'm going to a college in the completely opposite direction...?!
Or WHAT?! What alternative is there?!
I've never discussed these kind of things before, let alone to a bunch of strangers!! It really is worrying me! I've never felt THIS way about anyone and while I've often seen people as attractive and got on well with them, this is the first person that's made me think "Dammit, what the fuck are you playing at?! Just ask her out!"
Anyone care to offer some advice?!
Where the hell do I start? It would appear that I, around 10-12 years after swearing to my uncle one evening over dinner that I would never get a girlfriend, and desperate to approach a certain young lady...!
It's just embarassing! I'm using this account as a disguise, as my mates have a habit of searching each other's names on Google during lessons in computer rooms at school and the first results that spring up when my name is searched for are Interference pages! If I were to type this under my proper name sod's law says THIS mini-rant would be the first result to pop up and ALL WOULD BE LOST...so I can't take any chances!
Anyway, to the point...! I've always noticed this girl when I've been walking about in school, and until recently have never said a word to her...but recently I was lucky enough to be working on the technical balcony (lighting and sound crap) for our school's annual production, in which she had a leading part.
In short, all of a sudden it just sprang on me...she is fucking gorgeous! Whenever I see her it's fantastic even if I don't say anything, and I spent far too long just looking at her from a distance as she got on with her acting in rehearsals and on the night, etc...it just feels great! You know how teenagers are, just thinking beauty is only skin-deep etc. I've always tried to never think that way about anyone EVER, and after spending a few minutes talking to this girl when working on the school production every now and again, I've realised she is one of the sweetest, most charming people I've ever met...plus she's extremely pretty as well!
This problem was going to get a completely different topic as it's proving impossible NOT to think about her, and the new U2 album's gone and made it worse! Why did that cd have to come out at this time?! Now when I listen to it while going to sleep, tracks like 'city of blinding lights' and 'original of the species' remind me of no-one but her! And she would appear to be permanently fixed on my mind at the moment!
The problem is, she's in the year below, I have around six months left in my school before I take my final exams and leave! On top of that, I've never asked anybody out before, as (despite always trying to hide anything that bothers me and appear to be as calm and collected as i can be) I always find it extremely difficult to talk about ANYTHING to do with women, relationships etc. and have always kept my opinions to myself on things such as that...!
Ideally, I would love to say "Hi, would you like to go out some time yadda yadda yadda..." and kind of keep it to myself where my family are concerned in case it doesn't work out, and if it's a stomping success just bring it up over dinner with the family, casual as possible...! But then if I were lucky enough to go out with her and didn't mention it to my family, she'd think I was ashamed of her!!
I know my family would never judge me if I went out with anyone, I've been extremely lucky to be brought up the way I have been and know there wouldn't be any problem telling them I was going out with someone! I don't have a controlling family, but I think at the end of the day, there's going to be a time where the mask is just going to slip and I'll just have to admit that I am an extremely shy individual...!!
I really am stuck here!
What do I do?! Just sod all others and tell her "Look, I am infatuated with you and would really like to spend some more time with you!" before I leave the school, blowing any chances of seeing her again since she lives MILES away in another town and I'm going to a college in the completely opposite direction...?!
Or WHAT?! What alternative is there?!
I've never discussed these kind of things before, let alone to a bunch of strangers!! It really is worrying me! I've never felt THIS way about anyone and while I've often seen people as attractive and got on well with them, this is the first person that's made me think "Dammit, what the fuck are you playing at?! Just ask her out!"
Anyone care to offer some advice?!