Lancemc
Blue Crack Addict
Man, let me tell you, I really have a problem falling for girls I can't have. I did it several time during high school, and I'm afraid I've done it again in college.
He's the story. I've been here about two months now. I've tried to do the whole dating thing a couple times now with lukewarm results, but it's just not working to well. That's just fine though, I have other more important things to worry about for now. The problem is, I have this friend Kate, who even though I just met two month's ago, has quickly become one of the best friends I've ever had. We spend so much time together (well, compared to the time we actually aren't doing a shit load of work) and I just can't get enough of her.
Problem is, I'm falling for her. I don't want to say I'm falling in "love" with her, because that's pretty strong, but hell, maybe I am. Well, that's only the first problem. Second problem is she had a boyfriend. A boyfriend she's had for three years now. He goes to another University, and I actually got to spend some time with him last week. He's a good guy.
So yeah, if she was single I'd definitely act on my feelings, but I'm not an asshole. I can respect her relationship, unlike a lot of other guys here who hit on her regardless, and it disgusts me. I don't want to be that guy. Now, I can't say I haven't thought about the possibility of them breaking up. Heck, College usually breaks up MOST prior romantic relationships, so it's not unlikely.
Maybe I'll wait for my time. Maybe it will never come, and I don't want to become obsessive, that would ruin everything. So I'm cool. I can totally put this out of my mind and just enjoy our amazing friendship. Or so I thought.
I took her to a completely amazing Frank Black concert last Sunday, and we got there very early. Front row right in front of the bassist. God damn, his band kicks ass. His drummer is the coolest guy I've ever seen. Anyway, I'm getting sidetracked. So we're both standing there watching this guy bang way on these drums, this guy with shoulder length white hair, he's gotta be 50, and he's just rockin out, with the biggest widest open grin on his face. Kate and I love this guy, so in the middle of the choas of the show she just looks back at me and smiles.
Man, that was it. I just looked at her, smiled back, and thought "I'm going to marry her". It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. It was as this exact moment that I knew I loved her. But maybe I'm just overreacting, I don't know if it's really love yet, or do I? Maybe it was just the spirit of Rock and Roll, music IS passion afterall. But my God, that smile killed me. If I could capture a single moment thoughout the history of man and just live in it for all eternity, that would be it.
*Sigh* I'm such a romantic, haha, . But seriously, I know what I have to do. I have to preserve the friendship. She's too amazing to loose by screwing things up with romantic complications. I could be way off base. So am I asking for advice? Maybe, but I feel like I've heard it all before. A little insight can never hurt though. Maybe I just wanted to put this down in writing, in some real form because it has been eating me up inside... ever since that smile, that smile had to be designed specifically by God.
So, maybe I just wanted to share a story. I think it's a good one. So, leave advice if you want, and I'll let you know how it ends, if it ends, when it ends. Love it tough though, isn't it?
He's the story. I've been here about two months now. I've tried to do the whole dating thing a couple times now with lukewarm results, but it's just not working to well. That's just fine though, I have other more important things to worry about for now. The problem is, I have this friend Kate, who even though I just met two month's ago, has quickly become one of the best friends I've ever had. We spend so much time together (well, compared to the time we actually aren't doing a shit load of work) and I just can't get enough of her.
Problem is, I'm falling for her. I don't want to say I'm falling in "love" with her, because that's pretty strong, but hell, maybe I am. Well, that's only the first problem. Second problem is she had a boyfriend. A boyfriend she's had for three years now. He goes to another University, and I actually got to spend some time with him last week. He's a good guy.
So yeah, if she was single I'd definitely act on my feelings, but I'm not an asshole. I can respect her relationship, unlike a lot of other guys here who hit on her regardless, and it disgusts me. I don't want to be that guy. Now, I can't say I haven't thought about the possibility of them breaking up. Heck, College usually breaks up MOST prior romantic relationships, so it's not unlikely.
Maybe I'll wait for my time. Maybe it will never come, and I don't want to become obsessive, that would ruin everything. So I'm cool. I can totally put this out of my mind and just enjoy our amazing friendship. Or so I thought.
I took her to a completely amazing Frank Black concert last Sunday, and we got there very early. Front row right in front of the bassist. God damn, his band kicks ass. His drummer is the coolest guy I've ever seen. Anyway, I'm getting sidetracked. So we're both standing there watching this guy bang way on these drums, this guy with shoulder length white hair, he's gotta be 50, and he's just rockin out, with the biggest widest open grin on his face. Kate and I love this guy, so in the middle of the choas of the show she just looks back at me and smiles.
Man, that was it. I just looked at her, smiled back, and thought "I'm going to marry her". It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen. It was as this exact moment that I knew I loved her. But maybe I'm just overreacting, I don't know if it's really love yet, or do I? Maybe it was just the spirit of Rock and Roll, music IS passion afterall. But my God, that smile killed me. If I could capture a single moment thoughout the history of man and just live in it for all eternity, that would be it.
*Sigh* I'm such a romantic, haha, . But seriously, I know what I have to do. I have to preserve the friendship. She's too amazing to loose by screwing things up with romantic complications. I could be way off base. So am I asking for advice? Maybe, but I feel like I've heard it all before. A little insight can never hurt though. Maybe I just wanted to put this down in writing, in some real form because it has been eating me up inside... ever since that smile, that smile had to be designed specifically by God.
So, maybe I just wanted to share a story. I think it's a good one. So, leave advice if you want, and I'll let you know how it ends, if it ends, when it ends. Love it tough though, isn't it?