I'm all alone...

[starsgoblue]

I'm not typing this out so you can feel bad for me...I am not even sure why I am because I feel really ashamed bout this. All of my friends here blew off my birthday. One by one every single one cancelled thir plans to go out with me tonight....well then there were the ones who just never returned my calls so I assumed they were hiding from me. Even my roomates couldn't be bothered, I was in my room crying and I heard one of them saying, "I don't know what the big deal is with her."

The big deal to me is I love celebrating birthdays with other people. It's honoring them and basically giving the message that, "Hey I'm so happy you're a part of my life and that you were born." So to have everyone do this to me basically makes me feel like I can FOAD for all they care.

The only people that called me today were a couple of my friends back in RI and my mother. None of them are even in a 300 mile radius of me. Basically tonight I have learned I am totally on my own. So I'm sitting here on my birthday evening typing this out. I feel pathetic....clearly I don't have any friends....maybe I should go and post on the other thread on here too....

Sorry to bother you all with my sad and pathetic life.

 

[diamond]

it's ok you have friends here.
this scenerio has happened to most of us in one form or another.

here's a song for you:

-Dont Give Up-

In this proud land we grew up strong
We were wanted all along
I was taught to fight, taught to win
I never thought I could fail

No fight left or so it seems
I am a man whose dreams have all deserted
I’ve changed my face, I’ve changed my name
But no one wants you when you lose

Don’t give up
’cos you have friends
Don’t give up
You’re not beaten yet
Don’t give up
I know you can make it good

Though I saw it all around
Never thought I could be affected
Thought that we’d be the last to go
It is so strange the way things turn

Drove the night toward my home
The place that I was born, on the lakeside
As daylight broke, I saw the earth
The trees had burned down to the ground

Don’t give up
You still have us
Don’t give up
We don’t need much of anything
Don’t give up
’cause somewhere there’s a place
Where we belong

Rest your head
You worry too much
It’s going to be alright
When times get rough
You can fall back on us
Don’t give up
Please don’t give up

’got to walk out of here
I can’t take anymore
Going to stand on that bridge
Keep my eyes down below
Whatever may come
And whatever may go
That river’s flowing
That river’s flowing

Moved on to another town
Tried hard to settle down
For every job, so many men
So many men no-one needs

Don’t give up
’cause you have friends
Don’t give up
You’re not the only one
Don’t give up
No reason to be ashamed
Don’t give up
You still have us
Don’t give up now
We’re proud of who you are
Don’t give up
You know it’s never been easy
Don’t give up
’cause I believe there’s the a place
There’s a place where we belong

 

[indra]

That sucks. Well...you do have all of us... We're a delightful bunch!

 

[macphisto777]

Hey! please smile. Happy birthday again.

 

[Doozer61]

that happens to me alot too because my birthday is near christmas and everyone is too busy to celebrate with me

 

[Liesje]

Heh, my birthday is September 11.....no one including myself is really thinking about me on that day.

Stars

 

[Doozer61]

Heh, my birthday is September 11.....

so is BAW's

 

[BluRmGrl]

stars

Remember not to equate lots of people in your general area with lots of people who really care about you, dear. Some of the truly loneliest people on Earth are those who seem to be surrounded by adoring "friends".
It's human nature to want & surround yourself with other warm bodies, but sometimes your truest, dearest friends are separated from you by many miles. Take heart that you are really soooo appreciated and loved here - and if possible, we all meet you in a heartbeat for drinks & toasts to many more birthdays for you!!!

WE LOVE YA' & that's got to count for something!!

 

[youtwohearts]

stars

You have lots of friends on this board. Happy Birthday. We will all be here tonight to hang out with you so don't be we'll make a great U2 picture thread to celebrate your birthday. I'd start it now but at work it is too hard to get my pictures. We'll have fun.

I'll start it now anyway....

 

[Sicy]

That really sucks.. maybe its time to get some new friends

 

[burns]

OMG i'm very sorry to hear that,
judging by your posts here, you seem like a really nice person. you definatly not alone.....you have blue crack to fall back on
anyway this is confessionals,.....nothing to be ashamed off here.
By the way Happy Birthday

 

[e edge]

you are not alone Stars. and for sure you are not being pathetic!!! i know that internet friends are not the same as the ones you meet in reality but just go the PLEBAns and see your happy b-day thread there (i know you've seen it already).

people who forget about your b-day and can't understand what's wrong about it aren't your real friends and don't deserve to be such. you deserve to have better friends and i'm sure you'll meet them soon.

i'm not sure if that can cheer you up, but i'm doing my best (the only problem is that i'm not very good in cheering people up even if my wishes are best ).

 

[Heartland Kid]

To put it plainly Stars, I would f*&k them off! If they seem like they've made up some excuse, forget about them. If you think they are genuine, give em another chance. You don't need friends who don't need you. I'm sure you can make new friends real quick if you want to. Keep your chin up, you'll be fine.

and Happy Birthday!

 

[LarryMullen's POPAngel]

 

[Windmilllane]

Stars, you are my favorite interference poster.

You got the best friends in the world right here on blue crack, and I'm on top of the list. BTW, I started your Appreciation Thread in Lemonade Stand.

Happy Birthday!!!

 

[tiny dancer]

 

[Needle_Chill]

Happy Birthday!!

 

[Muggsy]

you're not alone

 

[Kharon]

Yeah, there's no two ways about what you described; that's flat out rough. While we can all be friendly with you on here, I can understand your yearning for proximal loving and endearment. It's only human nature to want to be close to people, and have them show their appreciation for us. It validates us as people, and nothing feels better than being wanted by others, be it for friendships, or perhaps more.

So, for what it's worth, happy birthday. But, yeah...seriously, don't take it personally, you're just having a stroke of bad luck, cuz I have yet to see any dislikable qualities about you. *hugs*

 

[celia]

I the song Dont Give Up

Well I hope you manage to celebrate your birtdhay another day.

Best of wishes to you and hope you have much happiness in the future I love reading your posts here

 

[diamond]

I the song Dont Give Up

db9

 

[celia]

cool,

Its on a film I really like - I think its Jack and Sarah but im not sure.

 

[elfyx]

stars,

i lurk more than i post, but i've got to say your spirit really shines through in your posts- which is amazing because its just an electronic forum!!!

seperating the wheat from the chaffe may be a painful process, but clearly needs to be done with some of your friends. you seem like a really amazing and genuine person who i'd love to get to know were i in your town. please don't judge your worth based off the imperfections of others.

oh, and happy birthday girl! i'm going to toast a guinness to you. it would only be better were you there to share!

 

[Phalanx]

What I am going to say is in the vein of elfyx. I've paid attention to your posting since you first came, and your personality is quite infectious! To see you upset makes me angry at your "friends" because apparently what you consider important is not reciprocated with these people.

I wish you a warm happy birthday from cold, cold, cold Quebec City, and hope you decide to be honest with your friends and let them know what's on your mind. You'll feel better.

 

[starsgoblue]

Thank you very much for your posts you guys. Your kind words and reassurance have held me through these past few days more than you know.

I wish I had more happy news. I tried to sit down and talk with my roomates about how they made me feel. It was a wasted point because apparently this weekend the three of them had obviously talked and came to the conclusion that if I wanted to move out that they wouldn't mind it....since I seem "so unhappy" here...
The next hour they spent basically personally attacking me and who I am. I really have no idea why they've done this. I almost feel like it's the 'pack mentality' and I was the weakest one so they picked me off. They accused me of blantant untruths...the most ridiculous for example, was the mysterious dissapearance of someone's bagel. I know who took it and I looked at her the whole time, expecting her to have the decency to speak up---she did but only to add the fact that she was tired of letting me use her phone since mine broke a whole whopping two days ago (!).

Basically, I know if I stay anything and everything that goes wrong will be attributed to me. If I don't leave they will make my life hell....

So looks like tommorow I have to start looking for somewhere else to live. I guess I really am starting over...

So thank you so much you guys. For a minute I was really starting to think all the nasty things they said to me were true and I was feeling very down.

 

[thrillme]

Ah, know exactly how you feel. My last birthday was, frankly, one I wouldn't mind forgetting forever. I don't blame my friends or lack there of, I'm terribly shy, and have a hard time making friends, or keeping them, but things at home were bad. My birthday was back in March, my family still hasn't done anything, usually there's at least cake, no cake. My sister, same thing, we usually celebrate our birthdays together, but since she's not shy at all, she had friends to celebrate with her.

I never really did feel like my "friends" wanted me around, which is probably why I'm planning on living abroad somewhere.

Think your friends feel kinda guilty, so they're just lashing out at you. Accusing you of stealing a bagel?, if I picked up on it for a second, that the people I'm around are like that, I'd be gone so fast.

Hopefully you'll find nicer friends, ye know, outside the cyber world.

iiiiii
_===_
L____]

^ Supposed to be a cake. Not sure how many candles, but there you go.

 

[starsgoblue]

Thanks...

 

[bsp77]

I hardly ever come to the Confessionals page, but this thread just hurt to read. I really don't usually care what people think of me at this forum but you are the first one that I actually noticed here. Your posts always seem so sweet and optimistic and I hate the idea of you being hurt. I am happily married, but you seem like the kind of girl I could be interested in if I was not married. I don't mean that in a bad way at all, I just want to say that I lot of people here really do wish the best for you.

 

[bonojr62]

wow.... I've had the same thing happen to me. Thats really rude... Maybe you should say something about it..> Oh well this calls for a hug

 

[Laura M]

I'm sorry

On my birthday this year my ex showed up, my cousin, her boyfriend and one of my friends. Everyone else who said they'd go out ignored my messages.

Atm im also pondering why I am friends with certain people. Most of them only speak to me when they need to copy my uni work (which counts towards our degree) or when all their friends are in class so they call me and come to the library to disturb me. I've been sick for over a week and none of them has asked me how I am. One of them got annoyed at me that I couldn't go out with him one night.