beegee
Neon Zebra
and it wasn't his idea. it was mine. now, for those of you who don't know my story, i'll keep it brief. my father left my mother last december after thirty three years of marriage for another woman. tonight was the first time i have spoken to him in four months.
the reason i decided to see him was because lately, i have been trying really hard to grasp the concept of forgiveness. i want so badly to let go of all the anger that is inside me. i want people to stop calling me bitter. i want to learn to hang on to the people in my life that i love, and to stop driving them away because i am afraid to be close. i have lost too many people already. i don't want people to say that i am mean and angry anymore. i want to let go of the past. i want to learn to move on. i want to forgive the people who have hurt me. this was my first step.
before tonight, i had vowed never to speak to my father again. but now, little by little, perhaps we can begin to be friends again. maybe we will never be as close as we once were, but it's a start.
i need to learn to take life a little slower, a little easier, to learn that i cannot be responsible for the people who hurt me, and to learn to let it go.
the reason i decided to see him was because lately, i have been trying really hard to grasp the concept of forgiveness. i want so badly to let go of all the anger that is inside me. i want people to stop calling me bitter. i want to learn to hang on to the people in my life that i love, and to stop driving them away because i am afraid to be close. i have lost too many people already. i don't want people to say that i am mean and angry anymore. i want to let go of the past. i want to learn to move on. i want to forgive the people who have hurt me. this was my first step.
before tonight, i had vowed never to speak to my father again. but now, little by little, perhaps we can begin to be friends again. maybe we will never be as close as we once were, but it's a start.
i need to learn to take life a little slower, a little easier, to learn that i cannot be responsible for the people who hurt me, and to learn to let it go.