LemonMelon
More 5G Than Man
This is a very insightful and honest post Lemon. You and I had spoken about alot of this privately - as happened with a few others behind the scenes once we all dropped the gloves and got to know each other a bit - and, or at least I thought, we generally settled on a measure of respect for one another and at least decent civil vibes, if not eventually far more friendly. And that was even after some things got hurtfully personal - zero need to rehash that here, as I said we spoke thoroughly about it via PM - I only mention it to show that redemption is indeed possible.
But yeah, there were plenty of times I felt I was getting the brunt of the wagons circling, and I can definitely empathize with anyone who feels that gang up is happening to them. We're all just people and fans after all.
You touched on another great thought: none of us knows from words on a public screen is what everyone is going thru behind the scenes. This forum stuff feels so important in the moment - and then some real life shit shows us just what truly matters.
I remember once you telling me something to the effect of do you realize that you're arguing with people young enough to be your kids? That stuck with me, and gave me a bit of a reality check. I can only hope my edges have been dulled alot more since then. Being a jerk on a message board might seem like great sport at the time, but there's far better ways to expend energy, thats for sure.
There is nothing you have said to me in public or in private that I continue to hold against you, Gabe. We're totally fine and I appreciate that you took the time to reflect on your priorities and the manner in which you present yourself, ultimately coming to the conclusion that it's better to take the high road more often than not. There are many things worth fighting for, but rarely in this setting.
One thing you guys don't know about me is that I like to apologize properly if I'm going to do it at all, sometimes waiting a very long time in the process, so I could not and would not have made that post even 5 years ago. I tried to avoid deflecting blame and to be as detailed and specific as possible, as you were with LN7. We can't turn back the clock (unless you're Harrison Ford) but we can be aware of how we misused our time and be intentional about where it's going. That's the best we can do.
Between struggling with first time parenthood, suicidal ideations, two car accidents this year alone that fucked up my finances, weathering a pandemic while having crippling germophobia, separations, reconciliations, betrayals, being assaulted last year, Jesus...I just want to relax when I come here, man. It's not that serious! So if anyone has an issue with me, I hope we can figure it out and move forward. Life is too short.
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