Giant Lemon
Rock n' Roll Doggie
I feel like the biggest fucking idiot in the world. Because of my stupid behavior, I've made one of my closest friends very upset. I'm afraid she'll never trust me in the same way again, and I don't think there's anything I can do to make it better.
Here's what happened: My friend (I'll call her Mary) found out that this guy (I'll call him Jim) was interested in her. Mary wasn't initially attracted to him, but she was open to getting to know him better and seeing how things went. Well, at a party last night the 3 of us were there, and I was talking to Jim a lot. We were both pretty drunk, and we ended up kissing (which Mary saw). This was the stupidest thing ever for me to do- I have no idea what I was thinking. Plus, Jim and I aren't interested in each other romantically or whatever, so there was no point. To make matters worse, I have no memory of some of the events of last night due to my large amount of drinking (another mistake), so I actually don't remember us kissing and wouldn't have known if Jim hadn't brought it up this morning. He asked me something about it, and I was like "what?!?! I didn't know there was any kissing last night!" And I knew Mary would be really upset.
So Mary talked to me this afternoon, and I told her that I'm sorry and that I realize I did a really horrible thing. Not that that makes it any better. I'm sure she'll get over it eventually, but I know that she's lost A LOT of trust in me. It's like I betrayed her. I can't believe I did something like this, and when Mary asked what I was thinking when I was kissing Jim I couldn't even tell her because I don't remember! I'm so mad at myself.
I would really like to make it up to her or try to make the situation better, but I don't know what to do. Should I give her flowers? Bake her a cake? I realize that something material can't change things, but I'd like to do something for her. This is just a horrible situation.
Here's what happened: My friend (I'll call her Mary) found out that this guy (I'll call him Jim) was interested in her. Mary wasn't initially attracted to him, but she was open to getting to know him better and seeing how things went. Well, at a party last night the 3 of us were there, and I was talking to Jim a lot. We were both pretty drunk, and we ended up kissing (which Mary saw). This was the stupidest thing ever for me to do- I have no idea what I was thinking. Plus, Jim and I aren't interested in each other romantically or whatever, so there was no point. To make matters worse, I have no memory of some of the events of last night due to my large amount of drinking (another mistake), so I actually don't remember us kissing and wouldn't have known if Jim hadn't brought it up this morning. He asked me something about it, and I was like "what?!?! I didn't know there was any kissing last night!" And I knew Mary would be really upset.
So Mary talked to me this afternoon, and I told her that I'm sorry and that I realize I did a really horrible thing. Not that that makes it any better. I'm sure she'll get over it eventually, but I know that she's lost A LOT of trust in me. It's like I betrayed her. I can't believe I did something like this, and when Mary asked what I was thinking when I was kissing Jim I couldn't even tell her because I don't remember! I'm so mad at myself.
I would really like to make it up to her or try to make the situation better, but I don't know what to do. Should I give her flowers? Bake her a cake? I realize that something material can't change things, but I'd like to do something for her. This is just a horrible situation.