miss-U2
Refugee
well i dunno if it is because it is not a good period for me now or what, but i am sad or angry at everything
and today, i miss my cats they died last year....
sorry, i am certainly bugging you, but it needs to be said...
i had 2 cats, a female and a male... i had them since i was 9 or so... and i had always had cats, when one died, my dad always came home with another one!!! but not this time my mum didnot want others (i think she has enough to be sad when one of them dies ) and well anyway, now i am not leaving with my parents anymore, so, even if we had had another cat, i would not have been able to see him so...
but anyway, the female one died 2 years ago i think... she had a cancer (i know, it is weird ) the problem is that i didnot even have the time to say goodbye to her... cos i didnot she had this.... we thought she was just sick... so my sister brought her to the doctor.... later in the day, he called us.... and he said that she had a cancer... so, we could come to pick her up (and see her suffering every day and pay for lots of pills) or he could.... well u know... kill her.... so well, we chose the second solution.... but we haven't had time to kiss her a last time (u must think i am weird to talk like that about a cat but )
and the male one.... geez i really loved this one he was like my baby!!! i know, that's stupid!!! but i found him lost on a forest near my house.... he was a kitty.... abandonned and certainly bad-treated before.... and i have always thought i was like his mum... cos when he was on my knees, he put his head very near my belly, and i read somewhere that when cats are doing this, they think they are in their mum's belly... well anyway, there was really something special between us... just looking at each other... and i dunno.... we understood each other.... and well, he was sick too... i think it was last year... or 6months ago.... so, as for the other cat, we brought it to to doctor... we received a phone call later in the day.... and he had HIV (i know, that's weird too ) and of course, we chose the second solution too, he killed the cat.... i have not even had the time to hug him one last time ....
and now, i am looking at their pics on my wall... and i miss them!!!
i am always wondering if they understand what is going to happen to them, once at the doctor's place...
and today, i miss my cats they died last year....
sorry, i am certainly bugging you, but it needs to be said...
i had 2 cats, a female and a male... i had them since i was 9 or so... and i had always had cats, when one died, my dad always came home with another one!!! but not this time my mum didnot want others (i think she has enough to be sad when one of them dies ) and well anyway, now i am not leaving with my parents anymore, so, even if we had had another cat, i would not have been able to see him so...
but anyway, the female one died 2 years ago i think... she had a cancer (i know, it is weird ) the problem is that i didnot even have the time to say goodbye to her... cos i didnot she had this.... we thought she was just sick... so my sister brought her to the doctor.... later in the day, he called us.... and he said that she had a cancer... so, we could come to pick her up (and see her suffering every day and pay for lots of pills) or he could.... well u know... kill her.... so well, we chose the second solution.... but we haven't had time to kiss her a last time (u must think i am weird to talk like that about a cat but )
and the male one.... geez i really loved this one he was like my baby!!! i know, that's stupid!!! but i found him lost on a forest near my house.... he was a kitty.... abandonned and certainly bad-treated before.... and i have always thought i was like his mum... cos when he was on my knees, he put his head very near my belly, and i read somewhere that when cats are doing this, they think they are in their mum's belly... well anyway, there was really something special between us... just looking at each other... and i dunno.... we understood each other.... and well, he was sick too... i think it was last year... or 6months ago.... so, as for the other cat, we brought it to to doctor... we received a phone call later in the day.... and he had HIV (i know, that's weird too ) and of course, we chose the second solution too, he killed the cat.... i have not even had the time to hug him one last time ....
and now, i am looking at their pics on my wall... and i miss them!!!
i am always wondering if they understand what is going to happen to them, once at the doctor's place...