mad1
ONE love, blood, life
....do you believe your life is planned out for you?........do you?
Of course, Im prob gonna sound so naive and selfish in what Im about to say, but I needs to get it off my chest.........................I guess Im angry................
I mean, sometimes I look at pple's life and where some are rich and perfectly fine, others who work hard are never....................I guess truth is Im angry at my mum being unwell, getting ill, etc..................Im scared, shes scared......but Im truly angry....not at her, but how this person, my mum, doesn't derserve it.........now I know all of you out there are now saying......'but like, nobody deserves to be unwell, ill'.........believe me I know this...........
But I know my mum...........and as some of u prob know as I said whats wrong with her, I guess Im looking and saying 'Hey, my mum has been a hard worker, shes been through a long bad spell with my alcoholic father, my handicapped brother, and the occasional me - not being a brilliant daughter'
So, why should she be ill, why on medication that, in time will it truly correct her? Will it make my mum come back to me? Or is she about to be taken away from me? (shes been getting chest pains and 3 pple have already told her that from the reading of her blood pressure, she shouldnt have been here today)..........shes bloomin terrified.....
it seems that nice pple always get something wrong with them...while the bad 'basterds' of the world (ie. my neighbour) dont!!!!!!!!!!
WHY?
two houses down a lovely lovely man, has throat cancer.............hes been fighting it, but now, unfort its spread.......so its just a matter of time............yet of course hes still living his life, but I guess u never see the anger until it hits home...........
look, maybe Im over-reacting, but really, do some of u tink ur lives are planned out?
These 'chain-of-events' things?
Mum said a lot of pple do.............well, if anything I wish she wasnt ill..............shes too bloody young to be going now.........and Im praying and scared, both her and I , dont want that to be the case..........................shes got a holiday coming up, I want her to be able to go feeling great and enjoy herself............
btw Im sorry to everyone if u tink Im blabberin on and stuff.........yes I guess I sounded selfish....pple out there have bigger problems.................................its just.......I dont know whats round the corner......
(please understand)
I dont go to church.................never was taken really.........but I dont know what to believe and stuff...............its such a confusing way to be, isnt it?
each of us have questions for things.
Im just so unprepared.
Of course, Im prob gonna sound so naive and selfish in what Im about to say, but I needs to get it off my chest.........................I guess Im angry................
I mean, sometimes I look at pple's life and where some are rich and perfectly fine, others who work hard are never....................I guess truth is Im angry at my mum being unwell, getting ill, etc..................Im scared, shes scared......but Im truly angry....not at her, but how this person, my mum, doesn't derserve it.........now I know all of you out there are now saying......'but like, nobody deserves to be unwell, ill'.........believe me I know this...........
But I know my mum...........and as some of u prob know as I said whats wrong with her, I guess Im looking and saying 'Hey, my mum has been a hard worker, shes been through a long bad spell with my alcoholic father, my handicapped brother, and the occasional me - not being a brilliant daughter'
So, why should she be ill, why on medication that, in time will it truly correct her? Will it make my mum come back to me? Or is she about to be taken away from me? (shes been getting chest pains and 3 pple have already told her that from the reading of her blood pressure, she shouldnt have been here today)..........shes bloomin terrified.....
it seems that nice pple always get something wrong with them...while the bad 'basterds' of the world (ie. my neighbour) dont!!!!!!!!!!
WHY?
two houses down a lovely lovely man, has throat cancer.............hes been fighting it, but now, unfort its spread.......so its just a matter of time............yet of course hes still living his life, but I guess u never see the anger until it hits home...........
look, maybe Im over-reacting, but really, do some of u tink ur lives are planned out?
These 'chain-of-events' things?
Mum said a lot of pple do.............well, if anything I wish she wasnt ill..............shes too bloody young to be going now.........and Im praying and scared, both her and I , dont want that to be the case..........................shes got a holiday coming up, I want her to be able to go feeling great and enjoy herself............
btw Im sorry to everyone if u tink Im blabberin on and stuff.........yes I guess I sounded selfish....pple out there have bigger problems.................................its just.......I dont know whats round the corner......
I dont go to church.................never was taken really.........but I dont know what to believe and stuff...............its such a confusing way to be, isnt it?
each of us have questions for things.
Im just so unprepared.