pax
ONE love, blood, life
The hair I will carry with me to the bridal bed
sticks to the back of my neck,
tangles uncomfortably in the dark.
I lift my hands above my head, wrists limp,
pinning myself to the sheets in hope of finding sleep.
The minutes, parched, crawl forward.
Jesus, who knows thirst, says, You can do all things...
I stack the extra pillows just so on your side
of the bed, three pillows, then one below them,
then the last below it. There is a reason for this.
Ice melts in the bottle on the floor.
Meanwhile you sweat it out on the other side
(not of the bed) and together we
coordinate our rising and our waking,
our wherever you go, there I will go with you.
It is complicated. The heat index depends
on the temperature itself plus humidity, UV, allergens, et cetera.
Likewise this waiting gets worse or better with sleep,
with gentle words, unspeakable thoughts
formed out loud between your rough consonants.
sticks to the back of my neck,
tangles uncomfortably in the dark.
I lift my hands above my head, wrists limp,
pinning myself to the sheets in hope of finding sleep.
The minutes, parched, crawl forward.
Jesus, who knows thirst, says, You can do all things...
I stack the extra pillows just so on your side
of the bed, three pillows, then one below them,
then the last below it. There is a reason for this.
Ice melts in the bottle on the floor.
Meanwhile you sweat it out on the other side
(not of the bed) and together we
coordinate our rising and our waking,
our wherever you go, there I will go with you.
It is complicated. The heat index depends
on the temperature itself plus humidity, UV, allergens, et cetera.
Likewise this waiting gets worse or better with sleep,
with gentle words, unspeakable thoughts
formed out loud between your rough consonants.