yep. never showed these to anyone before. they're extremely personal. so obviously i should post them on the internet for everyone to see.
"amittere vel amittere"
your voice lingers like the ghost of cigarette smoke
igniting an unlikely spark in the white
you sang like gabriel but with mischievous eyes
and a smile no stranger to sin
if the self is only memories
of moments wandering the mind
in mine you'll be here forever
in yours i've already died.
summer slips away,
as do we.
i can see the silent sirens.
so keep drinking like the tragic hero
a victim of unfortunate circumstance and seduction
though the marks on your skin suggest another story.
may they be a warning to all those
who dare to disturb the universe -
if you so choose to light the fire of love
this arrogant destroyer will blaze through bone
and no circle of gold is safe
now i dream of empty bottles and hospital beds.
but if we could drift through lines of time
so as to cut the strings which intertwined
i have no doubt you'd bring your blade
i would not.
these are mistakes which made me,
as i in turn made them,
and would do so again and again.
though i confess
i miss the innocence of our unspoken affection.
"no goodbye"
i'm taking pills and making plans
just a little more and i'll have this all figured out
i'm taking pills and making plans
just a little more and i'm blissfully indifferent
when i sleep i see
shades of those once close to me
my mind's a time machine
always anywhere but now
drugs and drink and dreams
i'm not really sure what matters anymore
what's the difference between memories and what's in front of me
i have the same sad smile
there is a distance between two lovers
as great as two strangers
i love you when it's snowing
i love you when i'm alone
winter longing is cold in my bones
but the chill is mine alone
i know you won't keep me warm
i like it better that way
it's the only thing i know
you won't miss me
you never did
it's easy to be insignificant
i won't pick up the phone this time
just a couple more drinks and i'll be fine
i won't pick up the phone this time.
"amittere vel amittere"
your voice lingers like the ghost of cigarette smoke
igniting an unlikely spark in the white
you sang like gabriel but with mischievous eyes
and a smile no stranger to sin
if the self is only memories
of moments wandering the mind
in mine you'll be here forever
in yours i've already died.
summer slips away,
as do we.
i can see the silent sirens.
so keep drinking like the tragic hero
a victim of unfortunate circumstance and seduction
though the marks on your skin suggest another story.
may they be a warning to all those
who dare to disturb the universe -
if you so choose to light the fire of love
this arrogant destroyer will blaze through bone
and no circle of gold is safe
now i dream of empty bottles and hospital beds.
but if we could drift through lines of time
so as to cut the strings which intertwined
i have no doubt you'd bring your blade
i would not.
these are mistakes which made me,
as i in turn made them,
and would do so again and again.
though i confess
i miss the innocence of our unspoken affection.
"no goodbye"
i'm taking pills and making plans
just a little more and i'll have this all figured out
i'm taking pills and making plans
just a little more and i'm blissfully indifferent
when i sleep i see
shades of those once close to me
my mind's a time machine
always anywhere but now
drugs and drink and dreams
i'm not really sure what matters anymore
what's the difference between memories and what's in front of me
i have the same sad smile
there is a distance between two lovers
as great as two strangers
i love you when it's snowing
i love you when i'm alone
winter longing is cold in my bones
but the chill is mine alone
i know you won't keep me warm
i like it better that way
it's the only thing i know
you won't miss me
you never did
it's easy to be insignificant
i won't pick up the phone this time
just a couple more drinks and i'll be fine
i won't pick up the phone this time.
Well written.
