love_u2_adam
Blue Crack Addict
I've been in one for 3 weeks. It's driving me nuts. I havent seen him in a week and a half.. barley talk because he's busy with work a lot. I'm willing to do it, put all my effort into it. I want to make it work! It takes a lot for me to trust, i have to many flaws when first dating someone. I haven't had a real boyfriend in a year. I've never done long distance. Dennis does come up every weekend pretty much but still i want to trust him i just ahhh can't! I've always got some thought racing through my head which i know isn't true. But I'm going to learn to deal with it. I just need some help. I'm so stressed i just want someone to talk to once in a while, but i can't tell him a lot now because he called me clingy on Friday when i wanted him to call me. he hasn't had a girlfriend for a long time ether so maybe he just doesn't realize it yet that dating means getting to know one another by communication. And now that i'm actually like not single i've got like 10 guys on my ass. I can't deal with that! He acts really protective when we're together but when we're not together he doesn't even care. I'm a very jealous girlfriend (one of my flaws) and he isn't. I'm sure if he knew what guys were saying to me he would be but that's not what i wanna do, make him angry. A guy that i fell hard for a year ago just came back into my life as of yesterday.... my heart fell when i saw him. But i'd never wanna go back to that because he does coke now (honestly when i walk out of guys lives, they fall apart). And i don't see the need to go out partying anymore if my boyfriend isn't around... like honestly i rather spend a night with my girlfriends. Ahh but getting back on topic... this drives me crazy.. will it ever go away?