jesseu2
Refugee
I don't know if this is a confession or not but I have had the shittiest couple months ever. well, this all starts back in april...
I was with this room mate for 1.5 yrs, quite a roller coaster ride.. white trash roommate, online gf twice his age(he was 23, shes 46), he was w/ me in a previous apartment before i got a new place where i am now, i own a condo with my mom. my room mate would smoke an leave his cigs on the patio, this ain't no shitty apt building and my mom tried to get him to quit cuz hes on SSI an she tried helping him by getting him all kinds of things like a dentist, being the nice mom she is because he has no family, we dont give a shit now tho cuz she came down unannounced an boy she was mad at the condition. He was given cheap rent cuz of his situation and he was supposed to keep the place clean (i have a hard time of doing certain things due to my disability) which he wasn't doing a very good job of. This condo is an investment. i was mad at him too for all the hell he put me through. He puked on the wall an carpet an left it there when he moved out. It had been there 6 weeks, quite disgusting.
And his online gf who is 46 and who he has never met (has no idea what he is like in real life...wears shorts an crappy shirts all the frickin time which just cramps my style), is married with 3 kids in South Carolina(he says they are gonna marry when the oldest kid turns 18 an she divorces), would call me alot wondering where he was soo damn annoying('her' voice sounded like a mans voice, no idea id its a he/she/she-male)... he is completely deaf but i shouldn't have to babysit him or know from her...about habits you don't even think about in a roommate like masturbating to pornos, his screwed up drug family an how his mother likes makin out with him. Also, my mom gave in an gave her her cell phone and home number cuz she (the gf) was concerned about him then one night over last xmas(2003) she calls at 3AM moms time sayin hes high as a kite at his folks house in florida. then another cuz he threatened suicide. it was nuts. soo i'm glad(mom too) thats over but then we get into buncha arguments an him sayin things like my geography major was a cop out... its a cop out for him to weigh 300 pounds and sit at home shirtless on my furniture 24/7 chatting with a fucked up 46 yr old bitch who i'd love to say "go fuck a duck" to this very minute, it wasn't pretty. She scared the crap out of me a couple times when i didn't want to answer her phone calls, she threatened to call my mom up an tell her a deep secret about me that i didn't want her to know(we used to chat alot until i found out she wasn't 24 and living w/ her parents ). This whole room mate thing makes me a bit leary of who i choose from now on.
Then thats that, fast fwd to Sept, someone stole my school bag which had my checkbook, college id on papers (which was my social security number at the time, got it changed after this happened), and my cell phone. So i had to go through the inconvenience and got everything canceled. put a fraud alert on my ss#. Also to add to it, i get sick for two days before my bag was stolen. Then sometime in October, i hear that one of my best friends from home who is 23 and not mentally capable of knowing whats right from wrong, gets molested sexually. The cops never caught the guy, dammit. There are sickos out there i tell you. my friend is fine now.
Then beginning of november i get this bad flu again right before i am about to go to the U2 INTOTHEHEART FANFEST in toronto, much worse this time and i felt like shit. Then i find out my parents are breaking up after 21 years of marriage. This is my moms second marriage. Step Dad moves out before thanksgiving.
It seems like when it rains, it pours. Then my cool 3 wheeler custom built bike i ride to school gets stolen. It just doesn't stop.
Then i hear a bunch of crap about family friends of ours not being the friend to my mom they used to be, yet treating my step dad better(taking him in as their 5th member type of shit) and hearing other shit i didnt think i'd hear in a million yrs like secrets between my step dad and my sis, he let her get away with lotsa things which i'm hearing as of past two weeks; its all a shock to me. Also, my sister has been at a boarding school since june cuz she was hanging w/ the wrong crowd. She has borderline personality disorder.. an she was smokin pot an takin zoloft at same time which made her crazy, yelled obscenities directly at mom til she cried. mom in tears lots. my sis is doin better now an i miss her, shes doin better in school but this mess makes her sad too. my mom an i are supposed to go see my sis in a week or so in montana, an have our late xmas, flights have been soo bad that we couldn't get out there. We fly standby. I haven't seen her since May.
I have my biologiocal father in Alaska who i never thought highly(but i still talk to him) of as he hasn't been part of my life much. i count my step dad as my real dad cuz of all he's done an he's been there for me the most. But i don't totally agree with his choicer to divorce and all this crap he has put my mom through to tears, my mom thinks the world is over for her but i'm tryin to help her. I have told both i wouldm't take sides but it's soo frickin hard to after what i've heard. It seems like my step dads reputation has dropped down to that of my dads. It really seems like nothing is going right these days. It's just my mom, our 2 dogs, and i in the house now. We(mom an i) spent xmas eve and xmas day at other family friends an one of moms friends she works with. It was the first xmas we as a family were not together, and the first xmas to not be spent at home.
I have a new roommate which is going much better but it really isn't going all that well, he does things in my place without asking me like throwing warranty and manual information out, moving things to the garage that i want to stay put where they are. his clients(hes in a wheelchair so he needs help) parents from upstairs where he used to live, fired him for the condition their place is in upstairs(its trashed); he used to live up there but moved out so another guy who's in a chair that he helps could move in, it would not have worked out if he moved in my place cuz its not chair accessible. had a dog up there too without permission from his folks too. my room mate(like the old one too) does not see these places as investments. I hate his attitude too and he acts an dresses like a white rapper. so annoying. he called an said hes gonna prolly move out soon. YAY!!!!!
I have had soo many other things going on amongst all of this nightmare... i got my gpa up from a 2.65 3 semesters ago to a 2.8 now after this past semester, pushin towards a 3.0 as i am starting my senior year in college in a couple weeks. I helped plan for the final presidential debate in october which was at Arizona State University, my school, by assisting in creation of geography maps for secret service, fbi, etc and these hi-tech gps (global positioning system) trackiing devices for them.
Everything else been goin ok now, i got a surprise from a bunch of people i know in town who work at bars/restaurants where i go to, they all are having a fund raiser to get me a new bike, and are gonmna use the money to have this guy build me a better bike than my old one. my old bike cost like $700 soo i'm very greatful to these people that are helping me.
I did meet a couple women who i liked, some i don't even speak to anymore cuz i don't care about(they don't call me ever, ), but there is this one who found out that i was interested in her before i wanted her to know(this has never happened before), lol, i hope we can make something out of this in 2005!
This has been quite a bad year mostly and I am ready for a new year, new u2 tour, new positive experiences, new beginnings, a better life, better everything.
I was with this room mate for 1.5 yrs, quite a roller coaster ride.. white trash roommate, online gf twice his age(he was 23, shes 46), he was w/ me in a previous apartment before i got a new place where i am now, i own a condo with my mom. my room mate would smoke an leave his cigs on the patio, this ain't no shitty apt building and my mom tried to get him to quit cuz hes on SSI an she tried helping him by getting him all kinds of things like a dentist, being the nice mom she is because he has no family, we dont give a shit now tho cuz she came down unannounced an boy she was mad at the condition. He was given cheap rent cuz of his situation and he was supposed to keep the place clean (i have a hard time of doing certain things due to my disability) which he wasn't doing a very good job of. This condo is an investment. i was mad at him too for all the hell he put me through. He puked on the wall an carpet an left it there when he moved out. It had been there 6 weeks, quite disgusting.
And his online gf who is 46 and who he has never met (has no idea what he is like in real life...wears shorts an crappy shirts all the frickin time which just cramps my style), is married with 3 kids in South Carolina(he says they are gonna marry when the oldest kid turns 18 an she divorces), would call me alot wondering where he was soo damn annoying('her' voice sounded like a mans voice, no idea id its a he/she/she-male)... he is completely deaf but i shouldn't have to babysit him or know from her...about habits you don't even think about in a roommate like masturbating to pornos, his screwed up drug family an how his mother likes makin out with him. Also, my mom gave in an gave her her cell phone and home number cuz she (the gf) was concerned about him then one night over last xmas(2003) she calls at 3AM moms time sayin hes high as a kite at his folks house in florida. then another cuz he threatened suicide. it was nuts. soo i'm glad(mom too) thats over but then we get into buncha arguments an him sayin things like my geography major was a cop out... its a cop out for him to weigh 300 pounds and sit at home shirtless on my furniture 24/7 chatting with a fucked up 46 yr old bitch who i'd love to say "go fuck a duck" to this very minute, it wasn't pretty. She scared the crap out of me a couple times when i didn't want to answer her phone calls, she threatened to call my mom up an tell her a deep secret about me that i didn't want her to know(we used to chat alot until i found out she wasn't 24 and living w/ her parents ). This whole room mate thing makes me a bit leary of who i choose from now on.
Then thats that, fast fwd to Sept, someone stole my school bag which had my checkbook, college id on papers (which was my social security number at the time, got it changed after this happened), and my cell phone. So i had to go through the inconvenience and got everything canceled. put a fraud alert on my ss#. Also to add to it, i get sick for two days before my bag was stolen. Then sometime in October, i hear that one of my best friends from home who is 23 and not mentally capable of knowing whats right from wrong, gets molested sexually. The cops never caught the guy, dammit. There are sickos out there i tell you. my friend is fine now.
Then beginning of november i get this bad flu again right before i am about to go to the U2 INTOTHEHEART FANFEST in toronto, much worse this time and i felt like shit. Then i find out my parents are breaking up after 21 years of marriage. This is my moms second marriage. Step Dad moves out before thanksgiving.
It seems like when it rains, it pours. Then my cool 3 wheeler custom built bike i ride to school gets stolen. It just doesn't stop.
Then i hear a bunch of crap about family friends of ours not being the friend to my mom they used to be, yet treating my step dad better(taking him in as their 5th member type of shit) and hearing other shit i didnt think i'd hear in a million yrs like secrets between my step dad and my sis, he let her get away with lotsa things which i'm hearing as of past two weeks; its all a shock to me. Also, my sister has been at a boarding school since june cuz she was hanging w/ the wrong crowd. She has borderline personality disorder.. an she was smokin pot an takin zoloft at same time which made her crazy, yelled obscenities directly at mom til she cried. mom in tears lots. my sis is doin better now an i miss her, shes doin better in school but this mess makes her sad too. my mom an i are supposed to go see my sis in a week or so in montana, an have our late xmas, flights have been soo bad that we couldn't get out there. We fly standby. I haven't seen her since May.
I have my biologiocal father in Alaska who i never thought highly(but i still talk to him) of as he hasn't been part of my life much. i count my step dad as my real dad cuz of all he's done an he's been there for me the most. But i don't totally agree with his choicer to divorce and all this crap he has put my mom through to tears, my mom thinks the world is over for her but i'm tryin to help her. I have told both i wouldm't take sides but it's soo frickin hard to after what i've heard. It seems like my step dads reputation has dropped down to that of my dads. It really seems like nothing is going right these days. It's just my mom, our 2 dogs, and i in the house now. We(mom an i) spent xmas eve and xmas day at other family friends an one of moms friends she works with. It was the first xmas we as a family were not together, and the first xmas to not be spent at home.
I have a new roommate which is going much better but it really isn't going all that well, he does things in my place without asking me like throwing warranty and manual information out, moving things to the garage that i want to stay put where they are. his clients(hes in a wheelchair so he needs help) parents from upstairs where he used to live, fired him for the condition their place is in upstairs(its trashed); he used to live up there but moved out so another guy who's in a chair that he helps could move in, it would not have worked out if he moved in my place cuz its not chair accessible. had a dog up there too without permission from his folks too. my room mate(like the old one too) does not see these places as investments. I hate his attitude too and he acts an dresses like a white rapper. so annoying. he called an said hes gonna prolly move out soon. YAY!!!!!
I have had soo many other things going on amongst all of this nightmare... i got my gpa up from a 2.65 3 semesters ago to a 2.8 now after this past semester, pushin towards a 3.0 as i am starting my senior year in college in a couple weeks. I helped plan for the final presidential debate in october which was at Arizona State University, my school, by assisting in creation of geography maps for secret service, fbi, etc and these hi-tech gps (global positioning system) trackiing devices for them.
Everything else been goin ok now, i got a surprise from a bunch of people i know in town who work at bars/restaurants where i go to, they all are having a fund raiser to get me a new bike, and are gonmna use the money to have this guy build me a better bike than my old one. my old bike cost like $700 soo i'm very greatful to these people that are helping me.
I did meet a couple women who i liked, some i don't even speak to anymore cuz i don't care about(they don't call me ever, ), but there is this one who found out that i was interested in her before i wanted her to know(this has never happened before), lol, i hope we can make something out of this in 2005!
This has been quite a bad year mostly and I am ready for a new year, new u2 tour, new positive experiences, new beginnings, a better life, better everything.
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