girlhappy
War Child
My life is really demanding lately(last few years to be exact).
I am looking for a job, cant find one, live in a f...up country where young people cant get o job in a honest way. I am totally exhausted and frustrated and angry about it. Is that all?
No, i am afraid. My granny i love deeply is in a nursing home for older people, she is not living with me any more(and my mum). It is hard not having her around even though i am visiting her on a regular basis. And on the top of all that, my ant who i love and admire the most has a cancer. How much is enough?
My question is: how can i keep the fatih in a God, what he wants, and why is he punushing good people like my ant and all the idiots are walking around with with every need fulfilled? I know it sounds like...i want to judge, but it is the first question i would ask God if i had i chance. And how can i keep my spirits up without any securitiy and in constant fear for people i love the most? To feel comfort is like most impossible thing for me.
I am looking for a job, cant find one, live in a f...up country where young people cant get o job in a honest way. I am totally exhausted and frustrated and angry about it. Is that all?
No, i am afraid. My granny i love deeply is in a nursing home for older people, she is not living with me any more(and my mum). It is hard not having her around even though i am visiting her on a regular basis. And on the top of all that, my ant who i love and admire the most has a cancer. How much is enough?
My question is: how can i keep the fatih in a God, what he wants, and why is he punushing good people like my ant and all the idiots are walking around with with every need fulfilled? I know it sounds like...i want to judge, but it is the first question i would ask God if i had i chance. And how can i keep my spirits up without any securitiy and in constant fear for people i love the most? To feel comfort is like most impossible thing for me.