shart1780
Rock n' Roll Doggie
a year ago my girlfrend dumped me on our three year anniversary. I was basically more crazy for her then as I was the first day I met her so of course I felt pretty darn bad. Looking back I was emotionally abused at times because of her immaturity. I was stupid to put up with it, not that it gives her an excuse.
Anyways, over the past year I've mostly gotten over the whole thing. She's had a boyfriend for most of the past year and I've been in slight contact with her as well as her boyfriend (I regret the small amount I've talked to him). She's wanted me to be her friend over the past year and I've been kind of hesitant even though she's apologized profusely for the way she sometimes treated me.
Because she thinks of me as a friend she tries to involve me in her life occasionally (which makes me feel uneasy). Since the first time I met this guy I felt like he was a pretty big loser (although I might have been biased). He seems like the kind of guy who could sweet talk a girl into doing basically whatever he wants her to. He made himself out to be this super pure guy who could never even consider looking at another girl with even the smallest bit if sexual thoughts in his mind. She was unwilling to see through his obvious crap because she was pretty naive.
Over the past year I've talked to her on an average of maybe 20 minutes a month.
I recieved a call from her last night and she told me she really needed to talk to me. It turns out that he's basically been a porn addict since he was 15 years old. This was pretty shocking to me and her. She said I was right about him the whole time and that he just sweet talked her for the entirety of their relationship (he always made a huge deal about how pure he was). I don't know if they're going to break up.
Looking back at this post I guess none of that has alot to do with my main point (haha). The reason I feel so stupid is because I realize now that I'm still in love with her. Even though I rarely ever talked to her for a year I still feel like I'm head over heels in love with this girl and I really hate it. I feel like I shoul have moved on months ago but looking back I don't think I ever stopped being crazy for her.
What the heck am I supposed to do? The only cure I can see is me finding another girl, but I don't see why that would happen anytime soon (despite my efforts heh heh). I keep finding myself drifting off into thoughts of us together in the future and catchng myself. Sometimes I feel like it's no use and just let myself go.
In short I feel like crap and that I'm a pretty big idiot for feeling this way. I'll probably end up completely cutting myself off from her to save myself from any more of this.
Anyways, over the past year I've mostly gotten over the whole thing. She's had a boyfriend for most of the past year and I've been in slight contact with her as well as her boyfriend (I regret the small amount I've talked to him). She's wanted me to be her friend over the past year and I've been kind of hesitant even though she's apologized profusely for the way she sometimes treated me.
Because she thinks of me as a friend she tries to involve me in her life occasionally (which makes me feel uneasy). Since the first time I met this guy I felt like he was a pretty big loser (although I might have been biased). He seems like the kind of guy who could sweet talk a girl into doing basically whatever he wants her to. He made himself out to be this super pure guy who could never even consider looking at another girl with even the smallest bit if sexual thoughts in his mind. She was unwilling to see through his obvious crap because she was pretty naive.
Over the past year I've talked to her on an average of maybe 20 minutes a month.
I recieved a call from her last night and she told me she really needed to talk to me. It turns out that he's basically been a porn addict since he was 15 years old. This was pretty shocking to me and her. She said I was right about him the whole time and that he just sweet talked her for the entirety of their relationship (he always made a huge deal about how pure he was). I don't know if they're going to break up.
Looking back at this post I guess none of that has alot to do with my main point (haha). The reason I feel so stupid is because I realize now that I'm still in love with her. Even though I rarely ever talked to her for a year I still feel like I'm head over heels in love with this girl and I really hate it. I feel like I shoul have moved on months ago but looking back I don't think I ever stopped being crazy for her.
What the heck am I supposed to do? The only cure I can see is me finding another girl, but I don't see why that would happen anytime soon (despite my efforts heh heh). I keep finding myself drifting off into thoughts of us together in the future and catchng myself. Sometimes I feel like it's no use and just let myself go.
In short I feel like crap and that I'm a pretty big idiot for feeling this way. I'll probably end up completely cutting myself off from her to save myself from any more of this.
). it'll pass. people always say shit like 'just go out and have a good time.' thats kind of bullshit. it might take a while but you'll be fine.
