U2democrat
Blue Crack Addict
I'm sure many here will be able to relate to this rant:
Since I've been home from school I've had multiple people ask me, usually in front of my parents, if I've "met" anyone---meaning, do I have a crush.
I always shrug and cover up my insecurity and true feeling of lonliness by saying "Oh, you know, 19 year old boys, they're just annoying."
It's time I became honest with myself, I'm damn lonely. Up until recently, my best friend and I had been the only ones out of our friends who had never had a relationship with a guy. Well now she's in a very serious relationship with her boyfriend, in fact ALL of my friends have boyfriend, and here I sit, still haven't been kissed.
I really just want a companion, I'm sick of seeing all my friends being lovey-dovey with their boys and I have no idea what its like.
Sure on the upside I'm missing a lot of drama and hard work that it takes to hold a relationship together, but I'd like to have one for myself, see what it's like, and people can stop wondering why I'm always single and inquiring about my love life (or lack thereof).
I keep waiting...and waiting...and waiting...and waiting...how much longer do I have to wait? How much more patient do I have to be? I'm sick of the lonliness...I wonder at some of the people who are in relationships and I can't get squat.
I'm not looking for sex at all...but something physical...someone to hold me when I want to be held, keep me warm, etc.
It doesn't help that my roommate's boyfriend comes every weekend and I have to watch their lovefest 24/3 (Fri-sat-sun).
Anyway this is an unusually long post for me...sorry about that...just getting some inner emotions that I had buried out for people to see.
Since I've been home from school I've had multiple people ask me, usually in front of my parents, if I've "met" anyone---meaning, do I have a crush.
I always shrug and cover up my insecurity and true feeling of lonliness by saying "Oh, you know, 19 year old boys, they're just annoying."
It's time I became honest with myself, I'm damn lonely. Up until recently, my best friend and I had been the only ones out of our friends who had never had a relationship with a guy. Well now she's in a very serious relationship with her boyfriend, in fact ALL of my friends have boyfriend, and here I sit, still haven't been kissed.
I really just want a companion, I'm sick of seeing all my friends being lovey-dovey with their boys and I have no idea what its like.
Sure on the upside I'm missing a lot of drama and hard work that it takes to hold a relationship together, but I'd like to have one for myself, see what it's like, and people can stop wondering why I'm always single and inquiring about my love life (or lack thereof).
I keep waiting...and waiting...and waiting...and waiting...how much longer do I have to wait? How much more patient do I have to be? I'm sick of the lonliness...I wonder at some of the people who are in relationships and I can't get squat.
I'm not looking for sex at all...but something physical...someone to hold me when I want to be held, keep me warm, etc.
It doesn't help that my roommate's boyfriend comes every weekend and I have to watch their lovefest 24/3 (Fri-sat-sun).
Anyway this is an unusually long post for me...sorry about that...just getting some inner emotions that I had buried out for people to see.