dazzledbylight
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NASTY INCIDENT-PRAYERS/good vibes NEEDED for DAZZ!
this one's directly for me (vs usually my fam & friends to/for whom you have been so generous
)
NO MEDICAL Emergency....{just get THAT right up front}
warning -long story
OK..... a long, complicated (living situation in general) situation with one (of 2) roomates i'm living with..........may be coming to REALLY serious decision time.
those Plebans who know the long, l-o-n-g version please keep that to yourselves....
here's the current update without all that other realy older complicating stuff.......
I might have to finally go get a an order of protection/restraining order against the roomate who was living here before me.....
...it's beginning to get too, too "aaaaaaaa" & energy draining w what else i have to do.
It's drained my energy and plans before.
and actaully I have another #extremely major# thing/circumstance upcoming in the next few months.
I don't think i can take THAT process(extremely hard work/decsions & fear/ anxiety producing), and keep having these intermittent but dengerous incidences with this particualr roomate. Ongoing for 5 yrs with more mediumm ones that also take a smaller but cumulative sometimes toll.
this past thurs night........after a modest problem i getting annoyed (loud voice/ a short amount of modest yelling onn my partwith her for not alerting me about something.. in the house....she flew into a RAGE......
It's too dicey for me to try and run out the front door when this nasty roomamte goes into A RAGE like that.
I might not make it out in time, and there's not that much room fro me to turn, and defend myself - a long hallway. My room is half way between the front door, and living room where almosrt all this troublre starts up.
I had to scream for help as she was body-slamming my bedroom door [not the first time, but I'd had it, per se]...and Luckily the folks next door....oppositie my window in their apt building
(a shortish distance )....heard me, and called the police.
The last time [3 months ago?] I yelled for the other nice{ current as of almost 2 yrs} roomate to call the police, but she didn't hear me-- as I went running for my room.
I ened up staying at my sib's this weekend, and i have yet to go home. I'm HERE first.
I'm calling some specialists in law to see what lag time there is in these proceedrues.
I tried fri later in the day to call these people at someone eslese apt..... but they were on call-back answer machine mode, and i was heading to my sib's. My sib's also going to try and talk to some folks i guess she knows, too.
this decision on Fri to calll my sis to ask if i could stay ( I HAD NEVER yet done that) was after roomate who was just sitting on the couch saw me walking down the hall, then heading to theendtable where phone is to use the phone (and NOT EVEN calls about her)........
....and grabbed tthe phone held it away, and wehen i leaned over her said i needed to use it--- "suddenly" she "needed" to "use" it....saying "I HATE you".
5 yrs ago someone else called the police on her the first time she flew into this kind of rage and hit me {luckily more psychological damage than real physcial damage...she's also throen things at me 2 x's. luckily smallish and her rage actauclly seems to mess up her aim.
I decided i was not going to get much peace and quiet.......as I was trying to comp0lete something (a special art project...mentioned later on here)....
....this wweekend if she was that spiteful . She probably would try and keep the phone in her room, grab it again or even [done before] ripped the phone cord out pf the wall.
Becuase re: court stuff.......
since I've been told sometimes it's very quick, sometimes it's not [more complicating factors]...I have to have as they say for......battered women......A PLAN.
ANd I don't know yet therange of time time length....how to cobble together a bunch of people i can stay with depending on length of time.
I have to get the super to put a lock on my bedroom door. I am hoping she did not talk herself into a "righteous" rage while i wasn't there to go and trash my stuffr { i took some of my most speccial physical stufff=momentos/aret/jewelry i've made& been given/photo0s/fancy clothing to my sib's}.
There's anger, then there's RAGING in an INAPPROPRIATE way , which is what can happen when I occasdionally stand up for my part in this apt.....and she dosent "like" it....vs just always walking away and letting her ompletely me bully me aroun d into what she wants. in living conditions
She's aLSO BEEN A PRoblem for the nice roomate...of whom we usually get along fine and work out what little problerms we've had.
why the delay.?
........well for 4 yrs no one told me (people who are supoose to be helping me) i could try and get this.
All they said was you have the right to file a complaint with the police ............nothin' bout a court order.
WHO in their right mind wiould DO THAT, and STILL be living there
!??!!!
I'm poor, I have complicating options...........yeah i can just pick muyself up and go to a HOTELfor a while.........even a modest but deccent one
shit...............
anyway please pray for my safety.
please pray that i make the right desicion for my health aND SAFTey and that I DO GET the SUpport/protection i need..
...and that if I do go through with this.....she WILL BE GONE from this apt in the next ? 2 - 6 weeks or so?
I will throw a small party for my friends if this does come to pass in a happy and safe way. and I'll have a VIRTUAL PARTY with you all here- as well!
~*THANK YOU IN ADVANCE*~ for your help.
I may not have the time to get back to a computer for a few days or so.
aND in this last week & a half (gathering up supplies and all)
i was trying SO hard to get s a drawing aND SCULpture into a particular kind of art gallery competition by this sat earlt eve.
because of her actions i just couldn't get it done on time.
some thing i had wanted to do for several yrs andd kept missing these actaull compettiion info each yr.
I had just happen to catch an annoucement about it 2 months back BUT for which i had some other major OBLIGATION i had to get to a further point- so all I could do was THINK ABOUT WHAT ART i wanted to make in the last week or so before the deadline.
i wailed like a banshee.....when i realized i was just making too many mistakes in the amount of time i had left. ...couldn;t do it right... I had planned to keep the sculpture and try tio sell the drawing.
The way I'm trying to think stay on it in a more postitve way.....
...it did jump start my work process BACK I N in this direction..
actuall completed physical art of certain kinds........VERSUS
>>>>>I'd been doing mostly (and learning) computer art (photoshop & corel's Painter <origianlly fractal design> for the PAST 3 YRS. it can be frustrating but i love it and waited [life situatuations] almost FOURTEEN YRS before i had the opportunity to have acess to this higher end computers/ storage apace etc.
and not only did i get one sculpture idea {based and altered on pieces i made/ehibited and sold (one) back in the mid-80's before i switched back to illustration again as a goal.-I love both} but i got several more off of the first one in the past 3 days.
my typing goinf further down hill...and i'm too tired to try to corrcdt it anymore.
tahnaks again
S
this one's directly for me (vs usually my fam & friends to/for whom you have been so generous
)NO MEDICAL Emergency....{just get THAT right up front}
warning -long story
OK..... a long, complicated (living situation in general) situation with one (of 2) roomates i'm living with..........may be coming to REALLY serious decision time.
those Plebans who know the long, l-o-n-g version please keep that to yourselves....
here's the current update without all that other realy older complicating stuff.......
I might have to finally go get a an order of protection/restraining order against the roomate who was living here before me.....
...it's beginning to get too, too "aaaaaaaa" & energy draining w what else i have to do.
It's drained my energy and plans before.
and actaully I have another #extremely major# thing/circumstance upcoming in the next few months.
I don't think i can take THAT process(extremely hard work/decsions & fear/ anxiety producing), and keep having these intermittent but dengerous incidences with this particualr roomate. Ongoing for 5 yrs with more mediumm ones that also take a smaller but cumulative sometimes toll.
this past thurs night........after a modest problem i getting annoyed (loud voice/ a short amount of modest yelling onn my partwith her for not alerting me about something.. in the house....she flew into a RAGE......
It's too dicey for me to try and run out the front door when this nasty roomamte goes into A RAGE like that.
I might not make it out in time, and there's not that much room fro me to turn, and defend myself - a long hallway. My room is half way between the front door, and living room where almosrt all this troublre starts up.
I had to scream for help as she was body-slamming my bedroom door [not the first time, but I'd had it, per se]...and Luckily the folks next door....oppositie my window in their apt building
(a shortish distance )....heard me, and called the police.
The last time [3 months ago?] I yelled for the other nice{ current as of almost 2 yrs} roomate to call the police, but she didn't hear me-- as I went running for my room.
I ened up staying at my sib's this weekend, and i have yet to go home. I'm HERE first.
I'm calling some specialists in law to see what lag time there is in these proceedrues.
I tried fri later in the day to call these people at someone eslese apt..... but they were on call-back answer machine mode, and i was heading to my sib's. My sib's also going to try and talk to some folks i guess she knows, too.
this decision on Fri to calll my sis to ask if i could stay ( I HAD NEVER yet done that) was after roomate who was just sitting on the couch saw me walking down the hall, then heading to theendtable where phone is to use the phone (and NOT EVEN calls about her)........
....and grabbed tthe phone held it away, and wehen i leaned over her said i needed to use it--- "suddenly" she "needed" to "use" it....saying "I HATE you".
5 yrs ago someone else called the police on her the first time she flew into this kind of rage and hit me {luckily more psychological damage than real physcial damage...she's also throen things at me 2 x's. luckily smallish and her rage actauclly seems to mess up her aim.
I decided i was not going to get much peace and quiet.......as I was trying to comp0lete something (a special art project...mentioned later on here)....
....this wweekend if she was that spiteful . She probably would try and keep the phone in her room, grab it again or even [done before] ripped the phone cord out pf the wall.
Becuase re: court stuff.......
since I've been told sometimes it's very quick, sometimes it's not [more complicating factors]...I have to have as they say for......battered women......A PLAN.
ANd I don't know yet therange of time time length....how to cobble together a bunch of people i can stay with depending on length of time.
I have to get the super to put a lock on my bedroom door. I am hoping she did not talk herself into a "righteous" rage while i wasn't there to go and trash my stuffr { i took some of my most speccial physical stufff=momentos/aret/jewelry i've made& been given/photo0s/fancy clothing to my sib's}.
There's anger, then there's RAGING in an INAPPROPRIATE way , which is what can happen when I occasdionally stand up for my part in this apt.....and she dosent "like" it....vs just always walking away and letting her ompletely me bully me aroun d into what she wants. in living conditions
She's aLSO BEEN A PRoblem for the nice roomate...of whom we usually get along fine and work out what little problerms we've had.
why the delay.?
........well for 4 yrs no one told me (people who are supoose to be helping me) i could try and get this.
All they said was you have the right to file a complaint with the police ............nothin' bout a court order.
WHO in their right mind wiould DO THAT, and STILL be living there
!??!!!
I'm poor, I have complicating options...........yeah i can just pick muyself up and go to a HOTELfor a while.........even a modest but deccent one
shit...............
anyway please pray for my safety.
please pray that i make the right desicion for my health aND SAFTey and that I DO GET the SUpport/protection i need..
...and that if I do go through with this.....she WILL BE GONE from this apt in the next ? 2 - 6 weeks or so?
I will throw a small party for my friends if this does come to pass in a happy and safe way. and I'll have a VIRTUAL PARTY with you all here- as well!
~*THANK YOU IN ADVANCE*~ for your help.
I may not have the time to get back to a computer for a few days or so.
aND in this last week & a half (gathering up supplies and all)
i was trying SO hard to get s a drawing aND SCULpture into a particular kind of art gallery competition by this sat earlt eve.
because of her actions i just couldn't get it done on time.
some thing i had wanted to do for several yrs andd kept missing these actaull compettiion info each yr.
I had just happen to catch an annoucement about it 2 months back BUT for which i had some other major OBLIGATION i had to get to a further point- so all I could do was THINK ABOUT WHAT ART i wanted to make in the last week or so before the deadline.
i wailed like a banshee.....when i realized i was just making too many mistakes in the amount of time i had left. ...couldn;t do it right... I had planned to keep the sculpture and try tio sell the drawing.
The way I'm trying to think stay on it in a more postitve way.....
...it did jump start my work process BACK I N in this direction..
actuall completed physical art of certain kinds........VERSUS
>>>>>I'd been doing mostly (and learning) computer art (photoshop & corel's Painter <origianlly fractal design> for the PAST 3 YRS. it can be frustrating but i love it and waited [life situatuations] almost FOURTEEN YRS before i had the opportunity to have acess to this higher end computers/ storage apace etc.
and not only did i get one sculpture idea {based and altered on pieces i made/ehibited and sold (one) back in the mid-80's before i switched back to illustration again as a goal.-I love both} but i got several more off of the first one in the past 3 days.
my typing goinf further down hill...and i'm too tired to try to corrcdt it anymore.
tahnaks again
S
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what bad typinng ) to follow it.
things are better for you the next time I see you here
