sweetie
Refugee
Hi there,
I've always kept a journal but for recent events, I find that I want to jot down my thoughts here because in PLEBA I have found such an amazing network of strong, funny, and supportive people.
Sunday night found me in the ER. My heart was racing and I was extremely tense and frightened. I had been feeling this way since last Wednesday. All week I had been suffering from a sinus headache, rapid pulse and heartbeat, and horrifying thoughts.
Wednesday happened to be the funeral of a very close family member. My uncle..my mother's brother. He had passed away the Saturday before. As an Italian family, we are all extremely close. This was such a shock to me and I took it really badly. So it doesn't seem like a coincidence that my symptoms became so violent starting Wednesday night.
By Sunday night my husband was really scared and took me to hospital where they checked my blood pressure and gave me an EKG...everything was fine. I was given a prescription for Xanax, which I'm probably not going to take.
What happened to me???
Thinking back over the past few weeks I'm beginning to understand the power of the human mind. The weekend before my uncle's passing, my mother was rushed to the hospital with the fear that she was having a heart attack. I turned out to be acid reflux and her heart is healthy.
Then the following weekend, my uncle passed suddenly from cardiac arrest.
Then my brother had a funky dream where he dreamt he was sitting at a round table with my uncle and me.
Then blammo! my symptoms started. Is it so crazy?
I'm sorry for rambling on. I apologize if I bummed anyone out. I just needed to get it out. Thank you all.
I've always kept a journal but for recent events, I find that I want to jot down my thoughts here because in PLEBA I have found such an amazing network of strong, funny, and supportive people.
Sunday night found me in the ER. My heart was racing and I was extremely tense and frightened. I had been feeling this way since last Wednesday. All week I had been suffering from a sinus headache, rapid pulse and heartbeat, and horrifying thoughts.
Wednesday happened to be the funeral of a very close family member. My uncle..my mother's brother. He had passed away the Saturday before. As an Italian family, we are all extremely close. This was such a shock to me and I took it really badly. So it doesn't seem like a coincidence that my symptoms became so violent starting Wednesday night.
By Sunday night my husband was really scared and took me to hospital where they checked my blood pressure and gave me an EKG...everything was fine. I was given a prescription for Xanax, which I'm probably not going to take.
What happened to me???
Thinking back over the past few weeks I'm beginning to understand the power of the human mind. The weekend before my uncle's passing, my mother was rushed to the hospital with the fear that she was having a heart attack. I turned out to be acid reflux and her heart is healthy.
Then the following weekend, my uncle passed suddenly from cardiac arrest.
Then my brother had a funky dream where he dreamt he was sitting at a round table with my uncle and me.
Then blammo! my symptoms started. Is it so crazy?
I'm sorry for rambling on. I apologize if I bummed anyone out. I just needed to get it out. Thank you all.