oh!how i hate to be "a bleeding hearts club", but i don't know...maby i shouldn't say anything...'cause who is interested in my troubles anyway...but it's so hard 4 me just to keep it all in my heart, without telling anyone...help me...'cause i'm very confused...
My story goes on like this:
all my life i've never had a person, whom I could call "a friend"...and suddenly, this summer i've met him!he was just the person i was looking 4 for so long-interesting, funny, he understood me, listened to me, took me out of my room to the real life of the city...it's hard to describe, but he was a person that tought me to be sociable, showed me the life, i've never dreamed of.he wasn't my boyfriend-no...or at least not A REAL one...well he used to tell me, that he loved me...we never really kissed, cause i wasn't sure, if i love him...all those words from him and etc came just too quickly 4 me...and i never thought that i loved him...however it was so nice when he was around...
it's difficult to say...
however, a month ago he told me something like "u know i should like to call a quit for that, what's going on between us..."
then i felt like the ground slipped away from my feet...i never looked at him as a boyfriend...only a friend-a REAL friend...a friend who will be long lasting...always by my side...and now?
what now?
it's a month gone from then but i still can't forget him!!!i can't...maby that was too unexpected...but it so hurts...i just don't know-was that love, if i still remember him...i thought that in a month or so i would have forgotten him and everything would have been just like it was before meeting him...but...BUT.
HE WAS MY only friend...but was he a frien at all?what to do-how to heal the pain i still feel, how to forget him..?
it sounds so simple...but 4 me it's very complicated...hard...and painfull...i BELIEVED he was the one i waited 4 for so long...but he only said bye bye and good luck!!...and left me there alone...however i can't blame him-if he just got bored from me, it was a right thing 4 him to do-to leave me...and my pain is my own problem...but he lied to me!he lied to me that he loved me!
i'm so messed up and so confused...
My story goes on like this:
all my life i've never had a person, whom I could call "a friend"...and suddenly, this summer i've met him!he was just the person i was looking 4 for so long-interesting, funny, he understood me, listened to me, took me out of my room to the real life of the city...it's hard to describe, but he was a person that tought me to be sociable, showed me the life, i've never dreamed of.he wasn't my boyfriend-no...or at least not A REAL one...well he used to tell me, that he loved me...we never really kissed, cause i wasn't sure, if i love him...all those words from him and etc came just too quickly 4 me...and i never thought that i loved him...however it was so nice when he was around...
it's difficult to say...
however, a month ago he told me something like "u know i should like to call a quit for that, what's going on between us..."
then i felt like the ground slipped away from my feet...i never looked at him as a boyfriend...only a friend-a REAL friend...a friend who will be long lasting...always by my side...and now?
what now?
it's a month gone from then but i still can't forget him!!!i can't...maby that was too unexpected...but it so hurts...i just don't know-was that love, if i still remember him...i thought that in a month or so i would have forgotten him and everything would have been just like it was before meeting him...but...BUT.
HE WAS MY only friend...but was he a frien at all?what to do-how to heal the pain i still feel, how to forget him..?
it sounds so simple...but 4 me it's very complicated...hard...and painfull...i BELIEVED he was the one i waited 4 for so long...but he only said bye bye and good luck!!...and left me there alone...however i can't blame him-if he just got bored from me, it was a right thing 4 him to do-to leave me...and my pain is my own problem...but he lied to me!he lied to me that he loved me!
i'm so messed up and so confused...