BabyGrace
Refugee
but I have Bono here to comfort me soo..dont read this unless you are really bored and truly have nothing better to do, or you're aspiring to be a sports psychologist. and dont say I didn't warn you
I am a bit scared..I think I'm going to quit swimming. I know that sounds ridiculous but I have poured so much of my life-my time, energy, and hopes-into this sport and I have gotten nothing in return. It's gotten to the point where it hurts too much to go in there and get beaten in the head again...literally. I don't like what it's doing to my self esteem. I've spent most of today crying about it because I had a disaster of a weekend..again. I've given it everything I have and more the past two months of this season and there aren't really any excuses anymore, it's been five years with minimal improvement and I'm not the kind of person who is going to do something just to do it. I want to be good at it, really good at it. I should be at Nationals by now and I'm not. I need to excel at whatever sport I do (because I have no life maybe, I don't know) and for whatever reason, swimming isn't working.
So anyywayy I've decided I'm going to maintain my swimming but on a much lesser scale..and pick up ice hockey as soon as I can. I'm scared for two major reasons: swimming is my life, it's been a good part of me for 9 years now, and secondly I'm scared about just walking into a new environment at age 17. I know if I don't do this, though, I'm going to look back 20 years from now and regret not trying it because I have the basic skills and a true love for hockey which is sometimes all it takes.
I guess basically change is scary, very scary at times. I'm sure you all know that. Of course this change in sport is not important in the ?grand scheme of things? but for me right now, this is prolly the equivalent of a total career change. Sports are a huge part of my life, and my dreams, however silly or lofty, are a part of me. I can?t just sit idle and watch them slip by because I?m too afraid to let go and take a chance.
If anyone has any stories about how they overcame change, or are struggling with change now, feel free to talk about it in this thread. It?s free, anonymous, safe, and whining is allowed
and I apologize for subjecting this forum to all my problems....but im still doing it anyway
I am a bit scared..I think I'm going to quit swimming. I know that sounds ridiculous but I have poured so much of my life-my time, energy, and hopes-into this sport and I have gotten nothing in return. It's gotten to the point where it hurts too much to go in there and get beaten in the head again...literally. I don't like what it's doing to my self esteem. I've spent most of today crying about it because I had a disaster of a weekend..again. I've given it everything I have and more the past two months of this season and there aren't really any excuses anymore, it's been five years with minimal improvement and I'm not the kind of person who is going to do something just to do it. I want to be good at it, really good at it. I should be at Nationals by now and I'm not. I need to excel at whatever sport I do (because I have no life maybe, I don't know) and for whatever reason, swimming isn't working.
So anyywayy I've decided I'm going to maintain my swimming but on a much lesser scale..and pick up ice hockey as soon as I can. I'm scared for two major reasons: swimming is my life, it's been a good part of me for 9 years now, and secondly I'm scared about just walking into a new environment at age 17. I know if I don't do this, though, I'm going to look back 20 years from now and regret not trying it because I have the basic skills and a true love for hockey which is sometimes all it takes.
I guess basically change is scary, very scary at times. I'm sure you all know that. Of course this change in sport is not important in the ?grand scheme of things? but for me right now, this is prolly the equivalent of a total career change. Sports are a huge part of my life, and my dreams, however silly or lofty, are a part of me. I can?t just sit idle and watch them slip by because I?m too afraid to let go and take a chance.
If anyone has any stories about how they overcame change, or are struggling with change now, feel free to talk about it in this thread. It?s free, anonymous, safe, and whining is allowed
and I apologize for subjecting this forum to all my problems....but im still doing it anyway