meegannie
Blue Crack Addict
I've only in recent years gotten to the point that I don't mind being hugged by people I know really well. Even hugging family members makes me really uncomfortable. I used to literally run away or get angry when someone I didn't know very well tried to hug me or touch me, but now I just don't say anything and put up with it because I don't want to seem rude or hurt anyone's feelings. I can't even stand or sit very close to someone without wanting to scream (unless I'm drunk, which is the only time my physical comfort zone has a radius of less than ten feet).
I'm just not a very physically affectionate person. Even making out is still a bit awkward for me and makes me really nervous sometimes. Which explains why, after living with my fiance for four months and being together for over a year, I'm still a virgin. The thought of sex gives me a panic attack, and even reading about it makes me want to run into a corner and cry (I should probably avoid MVD's threads ). I don't know why I'm so sensitive about it, but it really, really terrifies me.
I'll stop typing now that I've sufficiently humiliated myself and proven what a freak I am.
I'm just not a very physically affectionate person. Even making out is still a bit awkward for me and makes me really nervous sometimes. Which explains why, after living with my fiance for four months and being together for over a year, I'm still a virgin. The thought of sex gives me a panic attack, and even reading about it makes me want to run into a corner and cry (I should probably avoid MVD's threads ). I don't know why I'm so sensitive about it, but it really, really terrifies me.
I'll stop typing now that I've sufficiently humiliated myself and proven what a freak I am.