Take it one day at a time. Work on goals. You want to get a license, work on that. You want to get a job, work on that. You want to move out, work on that. You want to start a band, work on that. You want to learn guitar, work on that. Break everything down into small goals that you KNOW you can achieve. And maybe just concentrate on one thing at a time. I know I get frustrated with myself when I have too many things I want to do at this very moment. At that point I make a list and find out what's most important to me. Then I begin to slowly work on the things...and somehow they all get done.
Try not to get discouraged. (((Kelly))) You have SO much going for you! And you know we'll support you, no matter what happens!
And don't worry too much about guys. I'm almost 20, too, and I haven't really had any serious relationships. My last relationship was over 5 years ago. There are times when I get lonely and depressed. I look at other people who are in happy relationships and I think "Man, I REALLY want that! Why not me?" But then something happens to make me glad I'm not tied down to someone.
As for the band thing...are there any student groups on campus that you could join and maybe meet some people with the same interests? That would also help you get out of the house some more.
And don't discount your song writing! Look at what some people get away with singing
You're stuff is a LOT better than that!
(((Kelly)))
Here's a song dedicated to you....
Who's Gonna Ride Your Wild Horses?
You're dangerous 'cause you're honest
You're dangerous, you don't know what you want
Well you left my heart empty as a vacant lot
For any spirit to haunt
Hey hey sha la la
Hey hey
You're an accident waiting to happen
You're a piece of glass left there on the beach
Well you tell me things I know you're not supposed to
Then you leave me just out of reach
Hey hey sha la la
Hey hey sha la la
Who's gonna ride your wild horses
Who's gonna drown in your blue sea
Who's gonna ride your wild horses
Who's gonna fall at the foot of thee
Well you stole it 'cause I needed the cash
And you killed it 'cause I wanted revenge
Well you lied to me 'cause I asked you to
Baby, can we still be friends
Hey hey sha la la
Hey hey sha la la
Who's gonna ride your wild horses
Who's gonna drown in your blue sea
Who's gonna ride your wild horses
Who's gonna fall at the foot of thee
Oh, the deeper I spin
Oh, the hunter will sin for your ivory skin
Took a drive in the dirty rain
To a place where the wind calls your name
Under the trees the river laughing at you and me
Hallelujah, heavens white rose
The doors you open
I just can't close
Don't turn around, don't turn around again
Don't turn around, your gypsy heart
Don't turn around, don't turn around again
Don't turn around, and don't look back
Come on now love, don't you look back
Who's gonna ride your wild horses
Who's gonna drown in your blue sea
Who's gonna taste your salt water kisses
Who's gonna take the place of me
Who's gonna ride your wild horses
Who's gonna tame the heart of thee