Hmm..... a mixed bag.
WEll, for me, it's to the point as to NO MATTER WHAT I'm going to enjoy my post-HS experience more.
Seriously.
ALmost 100% of my problems are coming form my direct environment and the limits it puts on me. And I wish I were exhagerating, but I'm not.
Take me away, college!
I almost wish I could go farther away, but I'm too damn nice and I want to stay close to my crumbling family just incase they decide to need me in a way where I can actually do somehting...
Sorry about that.....
But let's just say that....
my grad. ring is one of my most prized possesions.
I purposly put no effort into getting my senior pictura taken
If I go to the prom that would be like...
someone who spits in your face, says U2 sucks, annoy you with immaturity, and perhaps even hurt your girl or someone you really cared about- - but you still give them a birthday present.
That's not right; that's not happening.
For me, (and yes, I understand some of it is due to my standards and Pride and perspective- I brought some of these feelings on myself), but school is like an evil empire.
I really want no part in it.
Hah, listen to this....
The senior T-shirt is going to say somethihng about how "being a grown up isn't easy, but growing up is the best time of our lives". Just becaue I didn't like school, I'm going to "edit" mine with some nice crossing-out-of-some-words action...
"Being a
grown up isn't easy, but gowing up
is the best"
heh heh heh.
And there are a lot of good kids in my school. It's just a place that I never liked, and I won't have any memories to hold on to or anything. I've got nothing to loose, and everything to gain!
I can't wait until I can truly dance to my own music
(and about the prom, I probably will go.... I know some friends who will want to go..... and everone says you should go just because....
It would sort of be like that guy with the Sunglasses and that girl from.... hah, "That 70's Show")
(And really, I shouldn't complain too much, it's not like anyone was mean to me or anything, sort of. IT's just there was so much that I could not do- for reasons beyond my control... ugh)
(wait a second... - - uh oh, it's John Malcovich-
"It's beyond my control...." )
......
(what's with all these outside references?)
wow, that's alot of writing......
oh well....
Time to play "Two hearts beat as one".... stuck in my head.
"Can't stop the dance....."