AtomicBono
ONE love, blood, life
Okay, there have probably been many threads on this before, and perhaps this would have been better in FYM, but lately I've been wondering what the point of everything is. Basically I've been in love with this guy for about a year (I've liked him much longer than that) but he has been dating my friend for three years. I'm not gonna go into detail over it but it tears me up inside and I feel like I'm never gonna get over it and I've never had a relationship or done anything with anyone but I don't really want to, if it's not him, so I'll probably die alone and in love.
I'm so emo.
But anyway, besides that, I don't know where I'm going in life. I hate school now, most of my friends graduated last year (including the guy I'm in love with) and we've lost some of our best teachers and our school is into this dumb small schools shit. I don't know where I want to go to college or what I want to study or what kinda job I'll have. I do pretty well in school, but I have this feeling that I won't make it in the "real" world. I'm 17 and I don't even have my driver's licence yet (driving scares me, honestly). And on top of all that, I have no religion, I believe there's a God but that's about as far as I've gotten. I had faith at one point in my life, but ever since my mom went crazy and thought God was talking to her, well, I kinda felt like God fucked us over on that one.
So to summarize, I feel really lost and I'm just wondering, what's the point of this life? Why do you live?
I'm so emo.
But anyway, besides that, I don't know where I'm going in life. I hate school now, most of my friends graduated last year (including the guy I'm in love with) and we've lost some of our best teachers and our school is into this dumb small schools shit. I don't know where I want to go to college or what I want to study or what kinda job I'll have. I do pretty well in school, but I have this feeling that I won't make it in the "real" world. I'm 17 and I don't even have my driver's licence yet (driving scares me, honestly). And on top of all that, I have no religion, I believe there's a God but that's about as far as I've gotten. I had faith at one point in my life, but ever since my mom went crazy and thought God was talking to her, well, I kinda felt like God fucked us over on that one.
So to summarize, I feel really lost and I'm just wondering, what's the point of this life? Why do you live?