sarah_U27
The Fly
well, I kinda miss my journal, so where am I to go? I enjoy coming on here. I am working on keeping my marriage together & in fact, improving it greatly. This is my huge challenge. It's extremely important---I DO NOT want to leave a heritage of divorce on my children. Furthermore, I really want to love him, even though, at times, I feel resentment and anger etc. unforgiveness. I also see the unlovingness. There's a distance, a wall that has to come down. I couldn't see that before. So, that's an improvement. That said, I have been working very hard, following someone's advice re: prayer and I am 100 times MORE hopeful that this CAN improve. Even though I feel like I made a mistake in marrying him, I am hoping that through in time it will warm up and get better. This is my waking and sleeping prayer. That my heart would change & I'd love him more . . . any and all prayers would be great. It'd be nice if he could change too, but I'm supposed to stay more focused on my inventory. how i relate to him.