adamswildhoney
ONE love, blood, life
I feel lost and confused and scared of what will happen to me. im constantly wondering if i am making the right decisions for myself and constantly wondering why i allow my parents to decide things for me instead of fighting for what i believe in.
I went to mass tonite and it just hit me while in church,Do i really mean what im saying? I constantly say that i will try not lie and yet i do lie, I lie all the time to not hurt someone feelings, to not get in trouble with my parents and to allow myself to not deal with reality.
I just dont get how some people can have such a deep faith in God and yet i feel like mine is so weak and not deep at all. Dont get me wrong i believe in God it just seems like its not enough.
And I also dont understand why im so afraid to do things on my own or not with the permission of my parents or family. For some damn reason i dont want to get away from my parents and yet at the same time i do.
Dont mind me im just rambling and i know i dont make any sense at all and i just needed to vent and let out my thoughts. Sorry
I went to mass tonite and it just hit me while in church,Do i really mean what im saying? I constantly say that i will try not lie and yet i do lie, I lie all the time to not hurt someone feelings, to not get in trouble with my parents and to allow myself to not deal with reality.
I just dont get how some people can have such a deep faith in God and yet i feel like mine is so weak and not deep at all. Dont get me wrong i believe in God it just seems like its not enough.
And I also dont understand why im so afraid to do things on my own or not with the permission of my parents or family. For some damn reason i dont want to get away from my parents and yet at the same time i do.
Dont mind me im just rambling and i know i dont make any sense at all and i just needed to vent and let out my thoughts. Sorry