Mrs. Vedder
Refugee
I'm sorry I need a place to just rant and let out all this anger right now. I'm currently working at a children insititution for abused children.. Sometimes I feel like I can't handle this job, because it's so sad to see children hurt so bad to the point where they can't trust anyone. Just playing a game... they constantly tell me "I'm sorry I won't do it again please don't hurt me" My gawd, I swear I just lose it and excuse myself to go and cry. I dont understand how people can be so damn cruel to their own children. It's like why the fuck did you bring children into this world if you are just going to hurt them like that. It pisses me off so much and it angers me. I just want to sometimes beat the crap out of the parents... because they have no idea what they have done to their children.
Anyway, today I got this phone call from the children center telling me to get there right away. This little boy, age 7, was brought to the center because they're have been charges against his parents for child abuse.... and the parents were being investigated.... I worked with this kid and he just broke my heart.... but he kept improving and being more social and participating in games and activities..... well, a week ago, the police let the parents go and dropped the abuse charges and the little boy was sent back home to them. Well, today as I got home I got a phone call that he was back at the center and was crying hysterically for a social worker that works with him and myself..... OMG when I saw him I just broke down.... he was beaten severely. I just felt so hopeless and so damn mad ....... I just can't believe people can be so damn cruel. I mean, he's just a child.. a child! Just the sight of him crying in my arms and all his bruises and the fear in his eyes of never wanting to home again just made me so damn ANGRY!
And I feel so horrible because now, this poor child is going to go through the whole legal system and would probably end up going from foster home to foster home. IT'S NOT FAIR. I just want to beat senseless all those parents and people who abuse innocent and helpless children. It's not fair! God I feel so awful! Sorry guys, just needed a place to vent. And lately getting back into posting again at interference has helped me deal with this horrible reality at work. I don't think my friends and Fam realize just how much this job really gets to me, but I do love what I do. I just feel crappy right now.
Anyway, today I got this phone call from the children center telling me to get there right away. This little boy, age 7, was brought to the center because they're have been charges against his parents for child abuse.... and the parents were being investigated.... I worked with this kid and he just broke my heart.... but he kept improving and being more social and participating in games and activities..... well, a week ago, the police let the parents go and dropped the abuse charges and the little boy was sent back home to them. Well, today as I got home I got a phone call that he was back at the center and was crying hysterically for a social worker that works with him and myself..... OMG when I saw him I just broke down.... he was beaten severely. I just felt so hopeless and so damn mad ....... I just can't believe people can be so damn cruel. I mean, he's just a child.. a child! Just the sight of him crying in my arms and all his bruises and the fear in his eyes of never wanting to home again just made me so damn ANGRY!
And I feel so horrible because now, this poor child is going to go through the whole legal system and would probably end up going from foster home to foster home. IT'S NOT FAIR. I just want to beat senseless all those parents and people who abuse innocent and helpless children. It's not fair! God I feel so awful! Sorry guys, just needed a place to vent. And lately getting back into posting again at interference has helped me deal with this horrible reality at work. I don't think my friends and Fam realize just how much this job really gets to me, but I do love what I do. I just feel crappy right now.