juliaguliaxo94
War Child
About a week ago, my then boyfriend basically dumped me and said he didn't love me in the same way anymore. He still wants us to be friends. We went out for 4 months. He's 15, I'm 16.
It really hit me hard and I couldn't handle it. I couldn't stop crying. We just had such a good relationship up until two weeks before it ended when he started acting different. Then it just ended so abruptly. It's still hurting me deep within. It sounds stupid, but I pictured myself being with him forever.
This was also my longest, most serious relationship thus far, and the first one where I wasn't the person who ended the relationship.
The thing that hurts the most is the memories. Almost everything I see or hear somehow makes me think of him and our good times. Every song I hear that was popular during our relationship, or just any song in general that was connected to us, instantly makes me think of him.
Also, almost every good memory I've made in the past 4 months or so is somehow related to him in one way or another.
It started out with him liking me, and me not returning the affection. Then, we both liked each other, and we went out. Now, the roles have changed - I still love him, but he doesn't love me back anymore. He's so amazing, sweet, and funny. He's..perfect. I can definitely still be friends with him, but I still wish things could just go back to the way they were. He says I didn't do anything wrong, and that he can't explain why he's stopped liking me all of a sudden. I wish he would just like me back, like in the beginning, but then there's the very likely possibility that the same thing would happen all over again. That's what's the most depressing - that it will never be the same, and that we can never have what we had in the past without it ending the same way as it did the first time.
How did you all get over your first loves? How did you numb the pain? Any stories? I'm desperate, and wanting ice cream very badly!
It really hit me hard and I couldn't handle it. I couldn't stop crying. We just had such a good relationship up until two weeks before it ended when he started acting different. Then it just ended so abruptly. It's still hurting me deep within. It sounds stupid, but I pictured myself being with him forever.
This was also my longest, most serious relationship thus far, and the first one where I wasn't the person who ended the relationship.The thing that hurts the most is the memories. Almost everything I see or hear somehow makes me think of him and our good times. Every song I hear that was popular during our relationship, or just any song in general that was connected to us, instantly makes me think of him.
Also, almost every good memory I've made in the past 4 months or so is somehow related to him in one way or another.It started out with him liking me, and me not returning the affection. Then, we both liked each other, and we went out. Now, the roles have changed - I still love him, but he doesn't love me back anymore. He's so amazing, sweet, and funny. He's..perfect. I can definitely still be friends with him, but I still wish things could just go back to the way they were. He says I didn't do anything wrong, and that he can't explain why he's stopped liking me all of a sudden. I wish he would just like me back, like in the beginning, but then there's the very likely possibility that the same thing would happen all over again. That's what's the most depressing - that it will never be the same, and that we can never have what we had in the past without it ending the same way as it did the first time.
How did you all get over your first loves? How did you numb the pain? Any stories? I'm desperate, and wanting ice cream very badly!
And yes, sometimes you have to drag yourself out and go through the motions, but you'll move on faster if you get out and live.
Uggghhhhh, life.
It makes me mad..I mean, he was the one that liked me in the beginning for months. And now, all those feeling are gone? It's so frustrating. 
