If/when I come face to face with god, I don't see myself as having any major regrets, nor would I really challenge his judgement, I guess.
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Oddly enough, sometimes I get somewhat turned on when I go to church. I'm not religious, and I'm not sexually twisted, but I guess it is just a reoccuring situation that was planted in my head. To be breif, *blatantlyinconsiderateofifanyonereallywantstoknow*, it is a strange sort of sex/love/marriage/weddingnight/deeplove/sexualdesire/legendarylove sort of thing
And it happens most when I am traveling and I go to a church in someone elses town. I guess my mind wanders. But it so strange for me, because I have my ins and outs in regard to Christianity and such. So there is respect, and reverence, but also a distance.
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As per the origin of the thread...
You know, I've been thinking about sex lately (
), but in regards to "sin", that aspect of it. It is definitely a primal thing, sex. I'm conflicted, because I respect sex, the urge, the pleasure. But at the same time, I don't think about sex in the same way I used to. Like most teenage guys, a lot of it just came down to being horny, I admit that. But now, I can't honestly say that I think about hunting down a woman just because I want to bang her.
I think a deeper level is involving emotions and sentiment, making it more an experience for two people, rather than one persons need.
And I think when it becomes a deep thing like that, sure, it is borderline spiritual. Two people connecting, generating life.
It is a miracle, in one sense.
I
could feel ashamed of sex. If I raped a girl, yeah, I wouldn't want god to see that, and it would be really difficult for me to see it, to live with it too. Or if there was some sort of dishonesty or something. Or maybe even if I thought I was getting played somehow, I don't know. There are exceptions, as in all things.
But ideally..........
I want god to be proud of me when I choose to have sex.
I would want him to be proud of my choice, of my reasoning.
I would want it to be a spiritual, special thing, that god would approve of. Something on a higher level.
That....... and...........
I guess a sort of icing on the cake would be doing it well enough to have god go "That's ma' boy!!!!
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lol
...Oh well, we all need to strive for something.
Damn straight...or queer, in some folks' case...
