u2bonogirl
Rock n' Roll Doggie ALL ACCESS
heres the latest installment. sorry it theres typos. I just wrote it straight from my head without proofreading it
The hospital smelled like blue gowns and hypodermic needles. Not particularly a smell but more a feeling that seeps up your nose and into the section of your brain that feels fear.
Ria was getting ready to pass out from the pain.
Still in the emergency waiting room.
The guy next to her sounded like he was going to hack up a Volvo.
Finally. They called her name. Having left her plenty of time to swell and think about what a huge mistake she’d just made.
Will he come back?
Will he still love me?
No, probably not. Why would he? I’m just me. Just plain old jane.
“What?”
“I said, how did this happen?”
“Oh right….ran into a fellow.”
There was a small flurry of activity around her bed.
Something that felt like shock was starting to maneuver its way around her body.
What were the little dots that kept popping up all over?
And gosh, couldn’t they use some brighter lights?
“Doctor?”
Ria spoke slowly. The room was fading out.
Even the pain was fading. The sort she felt in her arm.
“Yes? How are you feeling? You look a bit pale. Lie down”
“Doc. Tell him something for me…..tell him I love him”
Whats with all the bright lights? Ouch.
My arm is heavy…..
Ria squinted at her arm, encased in plaster from beneath her elbow down to her thumb.
She groaned and rubbed her eyes with the good hand.
What happened? She allowed her body to plunk back down on the bed.
Damn scratchy hospital sheets
Something seemed odd to her. A presence. A feeling maybe?
She sat up quickly. Wrong move. The light was sucked out of her head momentarily and darkness jumped in front of her face.
A hand touched the back of her head and eased her back onto the pillow.
Yeah, might as well just lay back down. Theres no reason to leave, Ive got nothing out there now.
Silence. More silence. Just what she didn’t want. More silence.
And who was that? The nurse?
No. cant be a nurse. Doesn’t smell like a nurse….Smells familiar though
Her brain still wasn’t functioning up to its full capacity.
Slowly the ants crawling across the screen began to go away, letting the picture come into focus.
Maybe if I just talk to myself. Yeah…no more silence. Enough of that
“Fucking brilliant Ria”
There. Much better. Sound. Voice. Something you should have mustered up a while ago
“What time is it anyway? I wonder if he ever went back….”
That hand touched her again. This time her cheek. Warm…
Familiar
Let the screen come into focus
Think Ria…..open your eyes
Her body jolted a few inches.
“Bono!”
His hands rested on her shoulders gently
“Calm down. Its okay, love. Slow down….Im here. Larry told me what happened and I came straight over”
Ria was wide awake and dizzy. Scared. Confused.
Monumentally sorry…….
“Im sorry Bono….I just-“
He shut her up with his finger placed over her lips.
“I also spoke to the doctor…he passed on a message for somebody you called ‘him’ “
Ria jogged through her mind…what was he talking about?
What did I say? The memory was blurred.
“Where did you go? I tried following you.”
“I went down the elevator and then changed my mind about leaving. I went back up to talk to you.”
Ria groaned. Once again. Fucking brilliant…..
“You don’t have to stay here and watch after me. I’m fine. If you don’t-“
Bono silenced her again. Why wouldn’t she get it through her head that he understood?
“Im not lookin to leave, baby. I came to take you back. With me.”
“What? I thought-“
“No. You’re coming with me. End of story”
There was an edge to his voice. Something forceful but kind.
Something you cant really ignore or oppose
“First let me say something without you interrupting me.”
Ria was sitting up all the way, legs slung over the side of the bed. Dress still on. No shoes.
Her toes were barely touching the floor, seeking someplace to begin walking.
She got to her feet. Whoa, earthquake.
Bono steadied her, taking her into both his hands by the hips
She couldn’t refuse his help and not end up face down on the floor.
Why am I so dizzy?
That feeling of lightning pushing its way through her body came again at his touch.
His damn touch that made her jump and skitter and get all befeckled.
“Talk away”
His eyes were smiling but his mouth looked serious. Interesting
“Okay. I’m trying to fricking apologize. Im sorry I couldn’t say anything back to you…..I really am. Its not because, you know. Its not cuz I wasn’t feeling……”
“I get it, love. Its okay”
“No! “ Ria stepped back and almost toppled over backwards before he caught her again
“Its not okay! Its not okay that I cant tell you how I feel. Not okay that I hurt you.”
His grip tightened on her. She was almost sobbing into her hands.
She felt the cold, hard plaster on her arm and threw her arms back down at her sides.
“Its not okay that I am completely in love with you and I don’t know how to say it because Ive never loved somebody before!”
She stopped. Silenced by her own words.
In love with you…….
The hospital smelled like blue gowns and hypodermic needles. Not particularly a smell but more a feeling that seeps up your nose and into the section of your brain that feels fear.
Ria was getting ready to pass out from the pain.
Still in the emergency waiting room.
The guy next to her sounded like he was going to hack up a Volvo.
Finally. They called her name. Having left her plenty of time to swell and think about what a huge mistake she’d just made.
Will he come back?
Will he still love me?
No, probably not. Why would he? I’m just me. Just plain old jane.
“What?”
“I said, how did this happen?”
“Oh right….ran into a fellow.”
There was a small flurry of activity around her bed.
Something that felt like shock was starting to maneuver its way around her body.
What were the little dots that kept popping up all over?
And gosh, couldn’t they use some brighter lights?
“Doctor?”
Ria spoke slowly. The room was fading out.
Even the pain was fading. The sort she felt in her arm.
“Yes? How are you feeling? You look a bit pale. Lie down”
“Doc. Tell him something for me…..tell him I love him”
Whats with all the bright lights? Ouch.
My arm is heavy…..
Ria squinted at her arm, encased in plaster from beneath her elbow down to her thumb.
She groaned and rubbed her eyes with the good hand.
What happened? She allowed her body to plunk back down on the bed.
Damn scratchy hospital sheets
Something seemed odd to her. A presence. A feeling maybe?
She sat up quickly. Wrong move. The light was sucked out of her head momentarily and darkness jumped in front of her face.
A hand touched the back of her head and eased her back onto the pillow.
Yeah, might as well just lay back down. Theres no reason to leave, Ive got nothing out there now.
Silence. More silence. Just what she didn’t want. More silence.
And who was that? The nurse?
No. cant be a nurse. Doesn’t smell like a nurse….Smells familiar though
Her brain still wasn’t functioning up to its full capacity.
Slowly the ants crawling across the screen began to go away, letting the picture come into focus.
Maybe if I just talk to myself. Yeah…no more silence. Enough of that
“Fucking brilliant Ria”
There. Much better. Sound. Voice. Something you should have mustered up a while ago
“What time is it anyway? I wonder if he ever went back….”
That hand touched her again. This time her cheek. Warm…
Familiar
Let the screen come into focus
Think Ria…..open your eyes
Her body jolted a few inches.
“Bono!”
His hands rested on her shoulders gently
“Calm down. Its okay, love. Slow down….Im here. Larry told me what happened and I came straight over”
Ria was wide awake and dizzy. Scared. Confused.
Monumentally sorry…….
“Im sorry Bono….I just-“
He shut her up with his finger placed over her lips.
“I also spoke to the doctor…he passed on a message for somebody you called ‘him’ “
Ria jogged through her mind…what was he talking about?
What did I say? The memory was blurred.
“Where did you go? I tried following you.”
“I went down the elevator and then changed my mind about leaving. I went back up to talk to you.”
Ria groaned. Once again. Fucking brilliant…..
“You don’t have to stay here and watch after me. I’m fine. If you don’t-“
Bono silenced her again. Why wouldn’t she get it through her head that he understood?
“Im not lookin to leave, baby. I came to take you back. With me.”
“What? I thought-“
“No. You’re coming with me. End of story”
There was an edge to his voice. Something forceful but kind.
Something you cant really ignore or oppose
“First let me say something without you interrupting me.”
Ria was sitting up all the way, legs slung over the side of the bed. Dress still on. No shoes.
Her toes were barely touching the floor, seeking someplace to begin walking.
She got to her feet. Whoa, earthquake.
Bono steadied her, taking her into both his hands by the hips
She couldn’t refuse his help and not end up face down on the floor.
Why am I so dizzy?
That feeling of lightning pushing its way through her body came again at his touch.
His damn touch that made her jump and skitter and get all befeckled.
“Talk away”
His eyes were smiling but his mouth looked serious. Interesting
“Okay. I’m trying to fricking apologize. Im sorry I couldn’t say anything back to you…..I really am. Its not because, you know. Its not cuz I wasn’t feeling……”
“I get it, love. Its okay”
“No! “ Ria stepped back and almost toppled over backwards before he caught her again
“Its not okay! Its not okay that I cant tell you how I feel. Not okay that I hurt you.”
His grip tightened on her. She was almost sobbing into her hands.
She felt the cold, hard plaster on her arm and threw her arms back down at her sides.
“Its not okay that I am completely in love with you and I don’t know how to say it because Ive never loved somebody before!”
She stopped. Silenced by her own words.
In love with you…….
Another great chapter!! Hooray! She finally told him!!
This chapter was great...Sweet, sweet Bono *sigh*
Phillie!! 
I was just excited then...bout meeting up with you and all...
I have survivor's guilt...
