Total U2 Nut said:
I know what you mean A guy in one of my classes died this (last) week and it was so sudden an unexpected that it threw me off completely, he was such a nice, sweet, unassuming guy - and for a bunch of 17/18 year olds, that's a hard thing to understand. Just last week we were talking about going to uni and stuff, and whether we'd started revision for January exams (we hadn't) and now he's gone. There's no sense in it, and he had a whole life to live... you just realise how potentially short life is. I dunno about anyone else, but before this I didn't think about death at all, it was something that only happened to old people... Meh.
Yeah anyway, sorry I kinda put a downer on everything, but the short and short of it is, I don't want to let whatever's going on spoil Christmas, but then, eh, I'm waffling.
I am
so sorry about this, Total U2 Nut. This is absolutely awful! To loose anyone, whether they be young or old, known or just an aquaintence is horrrible and a terrible shock.
My heart goes out to you. Life is a bastard sometimes. It kicks you when you're down and yet other times you might sit back and wonder why it's so good when everyone else's is shite.
I know
exactly how you are feeling. I know that I'm older then you but I still remember when I was 18, a guy I knew very well and was very close to up and died on me. It was the most devastating and traumatic thing I'd ever suffered. I will never forget him. He was kind and sweet and interesting and so unlike most of the guys I knew back then. I still think about him. I still feel sad about him. 'Course, he'd have been a grown man by now.
I often wonder how he'd have turned out. I still have his photo's. And I still feel a sense of loss. It will never go away and no matter where you end up or where you go; you won't forget him. And yes, he had his whole life ahead of him. It's so unfair but you have to continue. You have to make it work. Christmas for you this year is going to have a hint of sadness about it. Especially when it comes to New Years Eve - another year passing and all that.
You'll move on. You might not like it or think it but you will move on. You'll be a more understanding person for it as well. We are what we experience; simple as that. You've learned a very hard lesson. No one should have to go through that but we do.
I hope you don't think that I'm just rambling. I would like you to know that I've been where you are and I understand.