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[ghetofabu]

Depression settles at odd times
and unexpectedly
sneaking up
and putting it warm hand on my shoulder
a calm melancholy
abounds me
pure sorrow of spirit
not really an agony
but an acceptance of heart.
to be quite and dim
in the corner
maybe this is just me
my familiarity with the visitor
and clam resolution
i no longer fight its company
it takes me
where it wants
up and down
emotional hills under
clouded skies
of dreariness

 

[u2aregods]

you are right................

............ there is nothing you can do about depression.
you feel what you feel.
depression for me at least, came from overexpectation
beginning in high school. wait. i rescind that.
before then and even after high school i was
a virtual wallflower.
when i graduated from grade school we had this dance
and i danced with all the pretty girls that i worshipped
and it was cool. i thought well, things are turning
i may have a chance at improving my life.
but high school proved no different.
i don't know what causes it, well yes i do.
it has to do with serotonin and the synapses that are
responsible for transmitting information to other neurons.
in the brain when there is a lack of serotonin production ,
that gap
contributes to the descent of emotional balance
drugs like prozac are called i believe as ssri's
( selective serotonin reuptake inhibiters) and help with
depressed feelings and restoring the balance
my condition is a little different
i have social anxiety disorder
translation: " i don't play well with others'
having depression AND anxiety is a double threat.
depression brings you down where all you want to
do is sleep. but you can't because anxiety makes
you restless and there were nights when i'd be
up at 3:00 am and thinking" oh i just want to end this
....anything to stop this feeling .
it sucked to say the least.
but you have to accept that it is a part of you and always
will be until modern medicine can find an effective cure.

 

[adamswildhoney]

 

[LarryMullen's POPAngel]

 

[ghetofabu]

thanks.