Sitting staring at the computer screen. Feeling a rush of pain inside of me and a tear sliding on your face. I think what am I doing here, why the pain. I look at others who have more to gain. What do I do with my self to solve that pain. Do I take a pistol and blast my brains, do I make pitty on myself and live the morbid pain. This brain, this life I was born with is a curse I wish could go away. Take it away before it brings more pain. I hate this world and feel nothing of it. I will continue to live the life but can't wait to leave it, in a natural way. A way to escape the pain. Take it away from me, far far away.