I think about these things too. I've seen a lot of shows, and contrary to people who don't know me may think, am excruitatingly grateful for every one of them.
For as lucky as I've been, and for all the times I've seen them, the end in Miami will be bittersweet.
First, I'm broke. It's not joke, people think this is easy, I'm not spending money, I'm accumulating debt, and yes, this needs to end. To be honest, for a lot of us die hards who've been fortunate enough to really follow, it's becoming unhealthy for some of us, and I"m the first to admit it. If they end it, fine, but I can't walk away on my own because I love U2 too much, and I love these nights and the people I've spent them with with all my heart.
so I'm a little afraid of the withdrawal, and yes I do think about the future, if they will ever let us this close again. I think they will. I think Bono needs us as much as we need him, and now that he's had this in the US like he always had it in Europe, I doubt he will return to not being able to touch his audience. I know he's loving this right now, I see it every time.
But I can think to the future, I have more memories to cherish than anyone should be entitled to. I'm very lucky, and although I've pushed the envelope financially, physically and emotionally with the GA lines, and the stress that does come with this kind of touring, I can and will go home very happy and very fulfilled.
I am looking forward to new music. This has to end sooner or later, and hearing Bono say that a creative time is coming gives me hope. The music and all it gives me is what it is all about, and knowing they want to record more soon makes me happy. I have no fear of U2 going anywhere anytime soon, and I know it's not good bye, either for the chance to see them live or a new album.
It's time to leave it behind, to get my life back, save money, and recover from these months. However, it's been my life for the last year, every waking moment, and it's going to take time. But knowing they are there, recording, and going on with their future gives me a lot of hope for mine.
I'd love to hear how other people feel, really, about the end and what will happen next.
love and lemons
dawn
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..I can't wait any longer, I can't wait till I'm stronger, I can't wait any longer to see what you see...when I look at the world...