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I can relate. It's a great poem Strato Edge. Thank you.

To keep myself focused on the real meaning of Christmas I like to watch movies about the life of Jesus ( might sound sappy but it works). One of the churches here puts out a big outdoor nativity display, it's all lit up at night and very peaceful. I will often stop by and just look at it...

god that is so beautiful and it so perfectly captures what Im going through myself right now. It made me cry. Thank you for writing it and sharing it with us.

thanks guys. Ive had a friend open my eyes in the last few days. You can't live your entire life looking back. For me depression was a choice, I chose to look on the negative and let it suck me down. I'm not going to do that. Yes Im sorry that I lost what I lost but I can't dwell on that...

Im doing better than I was last night. Im just really missing somebody and regretting everything I did to make them go away.

last one tonight...maybe. This forum has become the only "person" I have to talk to. But hey, at least Im talking! Breathe Every day I?m breathing is a good day! Not really, but I can pretend. Imagination Sublimation Intoxication Take me away Make me go away Repentance Acceptance...

Gone warm nights, laughter, smiles And love All just memories, that leave me alone to ache, and question... what might have been.

confusion for sure. I am trapped between the man I lust after and the man I love....and neither one of them want me

another off the cuff one, written out of loneliness and the desire to mean something to somebody. Tonight This is the kind of night where silence hurts my ears, and loneliness hardens me. The kind of night, where in the same prayer, I ask for love to save me, and for death to deliver me...

yes, I believe in an afterlife. To me it represents hope, hope that I need to hold on to or I will just give up.

thanks. I seem to write off the cuff a lot when Im scared about something. Right now my own life scares the Hell out of me. I'm finding myself in some very dangerous situations just because I want to erase my own mind. I'm afraid to stop because if I do I will be forced to deal with things I...

This is a jumbled up free-verse type thing. It's about a night where I should have died but for the grace of God I didn't Train wreck It?s coming Chugging Screeching Nobody can stop it Not even me I should know better Than to drink When my mind is on him And my libido is on you You look...

oh, another question just came up...newmedia MUST take up an awful lot of bandwidth. If it is on the same server as interference I'd rather see that shut down than have interference go away. We can always link up on another site to trade mp3s but where else could we ever go to talk/post/chat?

what about making it so you have to be a member to read the forums? And what if you register an account you MUST keep it active...ie a post every three months or so. If not you are deleted. That would cut down on lurking, which would cut down on bandwidth being used. I dunno, just a...

exactly. When I am near the ocean I am near something so big and powerful I cannot even comprehend it's greatness. In many ways it is like being close to God. It makes me feel humble and at peace.

I see depression like being underwater. You can see the surface and you know you need the air to survive but you just can't seem to break through. Keep struggling to get there, sooner or later we will all break through.

yes the coast of maine is very much like Nova Scotia. Strong and rugged, where you know you are at the mercy of the ocean. I love the feeling of being near something so powerful it could overtake me at any moment.

that is exactly what it is meant to be. Emotional release through intense sex without any love at all. Just pure desire and lust to erase your mind and make you remember what it feels like to be alive. I live in northern maine. About a four hour drive north of Acadia National Park, my...

I used to cut. I have lots of scars Im not proud of. I never in a million years thought I would ever go through another major battle with depression. It's funny, but when I got everything I wanted and had somebody who seemed to really love and care about me I began to get bad again and I...

My blood runs hot, when you catch my eye. I watch you move and it becomes hard to breathe. There?s no pretense of love, and it doesn?t even matter. This isn?t about love This is about letting go and having what I desire.

wow, that is beautiful and haunting. I too long to have the wide eyes of a child again. Life can be so hard but it is also so very beautiful while we are allowed to have it, no matter how short it may be.

I am doing better. There are many stages to the loss process. One of which is anger and I have hit that stage tonight. It feels good not to blame just myself. I'm not angry at God for once either. I am just angry and it feels wonderful!

anger washes away the stench of complacency boiling blood purifies the filth of giving in I am me?. ME! not you! not an extension of you, not your piece of clay or your toy to manipulate. I have found MY voice, I have found ME again and I am beautiful!

I have been thinking about suicide a lot lately. Sometimes it is hard to come up with reasons not to do it and I often scare myself. Maybe I need to start writing again, I have all this pain and nobody wants to hear about it cuz it drags them down. Anyway, thank you for sharing, I have been...

the world caved in on me today. I dont even have enough strength to keep trying. Id like to float away from here, from my life and from my own mind. It really feels like God hates me. Ive been told that God never gives us more than we can handle. Ive taken all I can take and I need...