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well as someone that has always suffered from some sort of eating disorder I can tell you that it's not really something you think about...the disorder part I mean.
I've had a lifelong problem with binge eating and I've had problems with anorexia and bulimia since I was 15 (I'm nearly 29 now). When dieting it always starts out innocent enough, starts out healthy even...then the frustration sets in that the weight isn't coming off fast enough so soon enough it's back to starvation for days, then weeks, then months. Sometimes I get so hungry that it actually feels like my stomach is trying to dissovle the inside of my body but my mind won't let me eat, the thought of eating will actually be revolting to me. The hunger pains will become really intense, it just burns and aches all the time inside because I get so hungry. Sometimes the pain becomes so great that my body just goes nuts and suddenly spins out of control and I go on a binge. Then the guilt will set in about halfway through the binge so I make myself throw it all up.
On the other end of the spectrum is when I use food as an emotional comfort. I will get too sad, too lonely, too stressed or sometimes it even happens when I'm too happy or hyper and I just eat and eat and eat all the time. This makes me put on a SERIOUS amount of weight in a very short period of time. Then I get to a point where I hate my body again and the cycle seems to start all over.
Technically an eating disorder is any kind of preoccupation with food that becomes the controlling factor in one's lilfe. It's an obsession.
I hope this helps a little bit. It's just my personal experience and I am sure that everybody is different. Just try to be happy with yourself Pax and if you do find yourself dieting please do it the healthy way and don't let it take over your life and don't let your weight and what you eat or don't eat define you as a person
I've had a lifelong problem with binge eating and I've had problems with anorexia and bulimia since I was 15 (I'm nearly 29 now). When dieting it always starts out innocent enough, starts out healthy even...then the frustration sets in that the weight isn't coming off fast enough so soon enough it's back to starvation for days, then weeks, then months. Sometimes I get so hungry that it actually feels like my stomach is trying to dissovle the inside of my body but my mind won't let me eat, the thought of eating will actually be revolting to me. The hunger pains will become really intense, it just burns and aches all the time inside because I get so hungry. Sometimes the pain becomes so great that my body just goes nuts and suddenly spins out of control and I go on a binge. Then the guilt will set in about halfway through the binge so I make myself throw it all up.
On the other end of the spectrum is when I use food as an emotional comfort. I will get too sad, too lonely, too stressed or sometimes it even happens when I'm too happy or hyper and I just eat and eat and eat all the time. This makes me put on a SERIOUS amount of weight in a very short period of time. Then I get to a point where I hate my body again and the cycle seems to start all over.
Technically an eating disorder is any kind of preoccupation with food that becomes the controlling factor in one's lilfe. It's an obsession.
I hope this helps a little bit. It's just my personal experience and I am sure that everybody is different. Just try to be happy with yourself Pax and if you do find yourself dieting please do it the healthy way and don't let it take over your life and don't let your weight and what you eat or don't eat define you as a person
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